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Zycerak Thread

Discussion in 'Anything and Everything not Free Rider' started by Zycerak, Sep 29, 2022.

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  1. Zycerak

    Zycerak Lone Wolf Elite Author Team Truck Rotten Flesh Official Author

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    I will NOT tolerate "Wordle" spoilers uttered openly and blatantly under MY thread! Eryp Justice must be served. You know what to do.
     
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  2. ShadowMaster987

    ShadowMaster987 Active Member Team Balloon Official Author

    i am the imposter?? among us reference???? o_O
     
  3. Zycerak

    Zycerak Lone Wolf Elite Author Team Truck Rotten Flesh Official Author

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    Been contemplating my desires and trying to understand why my behaviours don’t align. As a child, I’ve always wanted to accomplish something with my life. For a long time I thought it was about the desire for success, fame, and recognition. I realize now those things don’t seem to affect me, because I never think it’s earned, I always think I can do better. I will not be satisfied until I have it all. I can not live with myself until I am on top of the world. I want it all, but I do nothing. These obsessive desires do not drive motivation. They contribute to the opposite, I am prone to giving up quickly, and never trying. I am used to the path of least resistance, I was never forced to try in my life, everything has been handed to me on a silver platter, so I have the delusion that I can accomplish everything by doing nothing still. But I know deep down it’s unreasonable and I am so astronomically far away from achieving my desires, so I embrace my laziness, I shut down completely, I am too scared to even think, and I watch life pass by me. University has been a blur, just like highschool, it’s passing right by me.

    But the next stage in life may be the most difficult of all, the job demand in my field is so low and it could be a massive struggle to obtain a stable financial position. But maybe it will be good for me, maybe it will be the fire lit beneath my ass to put myself into gear. I must stay optimistic. Pessimism is a sure way to fail, pessimism is compliance, pessimism is the path of least resistance. As one of my favourite artists “MIKE” puts it: “all this whining be a burden or a sign we flunking”. So true, MIKE. For now, I have to take it day by day. I stopped smoking flowers habitually which is a huge step up, it’s only been 2 or 3 weeks, but I hear the first 21 days are the hardest. I must not relapse.

    The hardest challenge I will face will be changing my behaviour, changing my attitude and mindset, thinking positively and forcing confident ideologies makes me physically repulsed sometimes, but as my 8th grade Math and Leadership teacher, also the vice principal, said: “Baby steps”. She said “look at yourself in the mirror and say something positive and write about it”. I wrote something entirely cynical, doubting her philosophy, but the more I thought about the psychology of behaviour, and the more I thought about what my grandmother kept telling me, I think she was write. My grandmother always said “your mind believes whatever you tell it” which is a hard concept for my 7-year-old self to grapple with at the time, but it’s true. We underestimate the influences our environment has on us. Our thoughts foster an environment as well. It’s easy to spiral, to produce an echo chamber of negative confirmation biases which shape our reality.

    I have to choose to put myself in situations and environments that foster positive outlooks and a sense of inspiration and intrinsic motivation. Easier said than done, considering I knew this for a few years now, but I always tried to deny it, I always believed that one day I would suddenly wake up completely normal, wake up and decide I will be a productive member of society at any cost, I hated the thought that behavioural change was a slow and effortful job.

    My true desire is to have a positive impact on as many people as possible. I still fail to positively impact the people already in my life at a small scale, and I still refuse to do so. My expectations of myself are too large considering all of the things I have not done or worked towards. All of my classmates seem so passionate and motivated and involved in important and relevant topics that it scares me, I don’t talk to them, I don’t make connections, and I can’t make friends with people who take life so seriously. The difference between my desires and behaviours have me constantly feeling pathetic, that I have been wasting all of my time, and it’s been hard to look at myself in the mirror lately, but I know I must meet somewhere in the middle, try to meet somewhere in the middle, lower my expectations while elevating my behaviour. But I can’t seem to manage my expectations, my desires, it’s a feeling so deeply rooted in my mind that it feels like the reason I was put on this earth, and if I don’t accomplish it all, I don’t deserve this life.
     
  4. Methodical

    Methodical Well-Known Member Official Author

    Zycerak replied to the thread Zycerak Thread. There may be more posts after this.

    -- For some reason, I actually believe Zycerak this time. Congrats zycerak.
     
  5. Zycerak

    Zycerak Lone Wolf Elite Author Team Truck Rotten Flesh Official Author

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    Mmmm craving some flowers.going to spark up
     
  6. THEend

    THEend feared and/or loathed in seven states Elite Author Team Blob Official Author

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    you may awaken at any point in a given day, yet some hours you may not stop dreaming...

    once you are clear, FREE OF ALL VICES, you may be able to imagine a great ball of Blue Light. this is the Source. unattainable yet within view. it must be your inspiration. this may also be called a Key. try to not lose sight of it.

    it is not a desperate situation if you find yourself without it. if you are at a powerful enough Wizard's Standing, you will know how to conjure it, without even understanding how to. but! you must keep on any Path you've found. such is your Key.

    all Paths lead to the Star. all Stars lead to COSMOS.

    one does not deserve anything before their time, nor does it come any time before this. you will find yourself in all manners of places before your time is called. internalize all places, all spaces, all sounds, noises, colors, and vapors. nothing is unimportant.
    ALL includes YOU.
     
  7. Foir

    Foir Member Official Author

    Can you write my essay for me?
     
  8. Zycerak

    Zycerak Lone Wolf Elite Author Team Truck Rotten Flesh Official Author

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    what's the topic and how many words
     
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  9. loge_0

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    3
     
  10. Foir

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    Andrew Carnegie philamprathy is a hero or not a hero?
     
  11. Foir

    Foir Member Official Author

    that's what my essay is on
     
  12. Methodical

    Methodical Well-Known Member Official Author

    use chat gpt and then just change words in it or just kinda rewrite it using its info, easy. but dont cheat
     
  13. Rayb25

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    Boy oh boy where do l even begin.

    Zycerak... honey, my pookie bear. I have loved you ever since I first laid eyes on you. The way you drive into the paint and strike fear into your enemies eyes. Your silky smooth touch around the tracks, and that gorgeous trackmaking skills. I would do anything for you. I wish it were possible to freeze time so l would never have to watch you retire.

    You had a rough childhood, but you never gave up hope.

    You are even amazing off the game, you're a great husband and father, sometimes I even call you dad. I forever dread and weep, thinking of the day you will one day retire. I would sacrifice my own life it were the only thing that could put a smile on your beautiful face. You have given me so much joy, and heartbreak over the years. I remember when you first left free rider and its like my heart got broken into a million pieces.

    But a tear still fell from my right eye when I watched you win your get you first featured track in miami, because deep down, my glorious king deserved it. I just wanted you to return home. Then allas, you did, my sweet baby boy came home and I rejoiced.

    2015 was a hard year for us baby, but in 2016 you made history happen. You came back from 3-1 and I couldn't believe it. I was crying, bawling even, and I heard my glorious king exclaim these words,

    "CANADA, THIS IS FOR YOU!" Not only have you changed the game of free riding and the world forever, but you've eternally changed my world. And now you're getting older, but still the goat, my goat. I love you pookie bear, my glorious king, Zycerak.
     
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  14. Nitrogeneric

    Nitrogeneric meow! Elite Author Team Blob Official Author

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    As a member of Eryp 's Discord™ server, I feel compelled to address the recent statements and behavior exhibited by Zycerak , which our community collectively deems as highly inappropriate and unacceptable. It is disheartening to witness actions that deviate from the values and standards we uphold within our tight-knit community.

    Our Discord server is founded on principles of respect, inclusivity, and a shared passion for the interests we bond over. The recent instances involving Zycerak have caused distress among our members, undermining the sense of unity and safety that we have worked diligently to foster.

    We acknowledge that everyone is entitled to express their opinions, but it is crucial to do so in a manner that is considerate and mindful of the diverse perspectives within our community. Zycerak's conduct has fallen short of these expectations, and we want to assure our members that we are taking this matter seriously.

    We deeply apologize to any members who may have been affected or offended by the recent events. Please know that we are actively addressing the issue, and we are committed to ensuring that our community remains a welcoming space for all. We are implementing measures to prevent similar incidents in the future, and we appreciate your patience and understanding during this process.

    Moving forward, we encourage open communication and constructive dialogue within the community to address concerns and maintain the positive atmosphere we strive for. Our aim is to create an environment where every member feels heard, respected, and valued.

    Once again, we extend our sincere apologies for any discomfort or disappointment caused by the recent events. We are committed to learning and growing from this experience, and we appreciate the continued support of our dedicated community members.
     
  15. Elibloodthirst

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    POV someone disagrees
     
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  16. thiccboi243

    thiccboi243 Casual Member Official Author Banned

    Bruh tf did zycerak do in the discord server
     
  17. Zycerak

    Zycerak Lone Wolf Elite Author Team Truck Rotten Flesh Official Author

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    I said a lot of racist and homophobic slurs. Also,I sent a lot of pictures of gore and nudity. Furthermore, I made death threats to people after finding out where they live. With that said, upon finding their address, I would mail them my blood, mucus, finger nail clippings, hair, earwax, and other things along those lines
     
  18. Zycerak

    Zycerak Lone Wolf Elite Author Team Truck Rotten Flesh Official Author

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    Zycerak. What is Zycerak? I like to think that Zycerak exists in us all. Zycerak is some form of matter we can not observe, but is a fundamental aspect of all things in our universe. Everything has a degree of Zycerak, from dogs to ants to trees and grass, to rocks to stones to planets and stars. Every time we breathe, we breathe in a little Zycerak. People like you and me have a much higher concentration of Zycerak in our minds which allow us to perceive ourselves, to be self-aware. We forgot what Zycerak means. We forget that we are all Zycerak, and that we are all connected to the universe. All this war, hate, and violence, it's Zycerak killing Zycerak, it's pointless, it's ignorant. Our ability to experience Zycerak to the degree which we do is sacred, it is precious, it is not something we can take for granted, it is not something we should strip from each other, it is not something we should toss away like garbage. Next time you see someone, see the Zycerak in them, and see the Zycerak in yourself. Humanity must feel united. We must lift each other up and look out for one another. Our backgrounds, how we identify, how we carry ourselves, it is all irrelevant in the big picture. Our flesh and blood are borders drawn as arbitrarily as countries, preventing us from connecting deeply with our Zycerak. I recommend listening to "Imagine" by John Lennon, it touches on this concept and I think it will change your perspective.
     
  19. ShadowMaster987

    ShadowMaster987 Active Member Team Balloon Official Author

    is that you
     
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  20. Methodical

    Methodical Well-Known Member Official Author

    yes
     
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