Pour Your Heart Out

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Whatever man

 

You might also be forgetting this is a kids bike game. You are literally promoting drug use to children. Even if it was a joke, think before you po- ok I didn't mean for that to rhyme, but whatever.

 

just found out that i have autistic aids

 

you're just saying words.

 

2 of my friends recently broke up. It's so hard for me to try and help both of them with both of their views

The girl is feeling blindsided over some things and broke it off, but she can't even get out of bed because of how depressed she is. I want to help but I can't.


Any help texting her after her long vents?

 

sure thing
if you need any help with how to respond to anything she's saying, send me a dm on discord
if it's in general, and you're asked how to approach her after the long vents, just be sure to listen, and give reassurance, someone venting to you like that is looking to be understood, and wants to tell you what's on their mind, so don't forget to be as thoughtful as you can when talking, just make sure that you're listening mostly and being honest it's helped when my gf needed to talk, and when I've sort of vented to anyone in the past as well, mostly just telling them things, it's been helpful to have someone who's listening to you, even if they don't say much, and reassurance in a time like that is even more important, because being alone while you're depressed is not good
let me know if you need any help with talking to them or responding to anything that either of them say, if they're both talking to you actively, I'll be glad to help as best as I can

 

For anyone who wants to wreck their lives just smoke W E E D. My uncle overdosed; I wont make the same mistake. Stop it before you wreck your life.

 

In the end w ee d won't make you happier. You'll start to feel worse and you have to smoke w ee d to feel normal. Then you'll start to feel sick and feel less sick when you smoke it. It's a temporary solution, and it can screw up your life. But hey, it's better than crystal meth so...

thank you. I might have to take you up on that offer, because I feel like I'm not the best with helping people that I know. Over discord I've had people DM me and that works out okay, but it's harder when yoiu actually know the person. However since I know the person, I don't want to breach their privacy, even with someone random online because they haven't really gone to anyone else. Thank you though.

 

wow

 

please stop spamming this thread with meaningless posts.

 

just found out? i've known for years

 

hiya bubs. lotta text here, feel free to read, not read. you should read the final paragraph for sure though

never feel a big need to post my feelings, real, fake, or otherwise. had the thought to type this up here instead of do other things, heehee, so here goes

gone through big waves of depression, anxiety, dysphoria, etc. for big amounts of years. larger and larger fraction of my life now. lots of causes, lots of excuses, not a lot of growth or change on my part. those big words feel like jargon so far removed from the reality of any of my (and maybe your?) situations. and it was MUCH easier to spout them out, complain, and commiserate with everyone else writhing in the mud of life. used good ol' sativa to distract me and allow my life to feel great even when i didn't make it feel great starting in college. college itself sucked, both because i didn't apply myself and also because i didn't feel like i fit in. didn't feel like i fit in in high school, in middle school, honestly didn't feel like i fit in around here either. none of that was likely true in reality, but damn was it real in my head.

i've recently been feeling like much of that was inner turmoil within myself, what i wanted to do, and how i felt people reacted to what i found interesting. this game, games in general, film, music, art, history, theater, golf! "what a friggin white kid in a small town colorado is gonna go far with golf?" "how do you think you'll go anywhere if you don't want to make a script for your movie idea?" "can't barely exercise, why would you think anyone would hire you as an actor?" "why would you try and learn things yourself when you can get someone qualified to tell you how to REALLY do it??" what i was really doing throughout all this was allowing other people to have more of an opinion over my work than i did for myself. i WANTED to fit in. i WANTED to be liked, to be like everyone else.

i've recently come to the decision that i'm not at all like other people, while also being every other person. and i think i'm finally starting to see change in my life because of that...

i'm in a play at the moment. pretty much the only serious, long standing theater on the small side of colorado. 250 seats. hasn't sold out since covid. i've been doing stuff there since i was seven. SEVEN. fifteen years later i finally feel like i've found a spot.
it's a version of Amadeus. if you don't know what that is, it's about mozart. i'm playing mozart. it won a tony in the 80s, the movie won a ton of awards when it came out later. the script is fantastic. i'm finally getting to work on the same level with multiple different actors that i've grown up with, gotten to watch on stage again and again, wanting to have the power over an audience that they seem to wield. one of them is an ex teacher of mine, who any way i look at it let me pass his class after i could barely scare up the energy to do any work for it. somehow i'm an equal in his eyes now. we talked about our shortcomings the other night after one performance, and it made me realize that i always felt behind not because i was, but i wasn't good enough at looking at the flaws of another person. just myself! silly me. many many other such cases over the course of getting this play together over the last few months, but i digress.

last night was the best performance of the show thus far. have another one in about an hour, then four others. LOTS of things didn't go right, but even more things went fantastically. FANTASTICALLY. nearly cried after i got off stage (in a good way!). shared the best work with another that i think i may have ever done in my life so far. everyone else went out for the bows first, and we shared a look behind the front of stage about fifty feet away. all we did was hold eye contact and nod at each other.

i realized that i'd never felt that way about myself before those moments. i beat myself up even the tiniest little detail going awry, both in tracks here, and in my own life. it stifles you. strangles the creativity life provides. haven't finished a track properly in like six years? been working on songs and film ideas for about as long, haven't finished anything.

nah. no more of that.

i'm gonna make it damn good, but i'm gonna trust myself. when it feels right, GOD does it feel right. gotta wait for it to feel right. gotta be patient. and you GOTTA work. every day. every. single. day.

shout out to Volund for posting my silly lil unfinished track in his favorites, make me think that i may have been on the right track a very long time ago. that i had found it, then doubted it, then strayed away yet again. i gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta go with the gut.

can't thank everyone here enough for supporting me when i didn't realize you were supporting me. can't thank everyone enough for trying to push others up. i can't care if i fit in, but i can care so very deeply about all of you.


all we can do is our best. all we'll ever do isn't even close to Our worst. love each other, despite the setbacks love loves to provide for you. you will get through every single thing you think is impossible, because you can be the strongest thing the universe has ever seen.

You can be Alive.

 

Monthly quotes from the Legend you see before you:

If you're not having fun, then what is the point of doing something? Even if it involves money, a lifestyle without much enjoyment does no good to people. Similar to FRHD, I enjoy it because the game is fun but simple even without the updates and I adore this community. If you don't like it here, step back or leave, it ain't hard, it is for your own good so you can enjoy certain aspects of life and make things worth what they are.

If you don't ask for much, then you're either very balanced in life or not living life to the fullest. Sometimes in life, not asking for those new amazing pairs of shoes or disregarding privileges shows you're a very humble person and can live without the constant need for the new or the fun. But, as mentioned before, what is life without fun? If you don't ask for much but get nowhere in life, then you're a very simple person, it doesn't hurt to ask someone for something, the only thing that matters, in this case, is if you've earned it.

 

man do i wish i hadn't smoked so much back then... i only remember never wanting to leave that call <3 i love ya dearly eryp

 

haha I don't even have friends like this irl let alone in a game. ahh good fun

 

this articulates perfectly how beautifully subjective art is; ive been playing exalted non-stop for the last week, at like 200% zoom just enjoying the little challenges whilst taking in the gorgeous stylised art. to me, the track is perfect - so much to explore, so many cool parts of the track to master, and inspiring detail to boot ^^

im glad youre doing well/better brother <3 ive been really enjoying your posts like this on here and dc, im learning a lot about art and thinking more about life from different perspectives

ig as a tangent, the friendships and relationships ive made on here are really all that keep me playing the game, and have had very positive effects on my life, whether that be when i joined at 14 or now at a grizzled 22 lol. yall really are amazing and inspiring in your own ways :' )