Pour Your Heart Out

oh wow

 

I am usually a very happy person. Sometimes tho, I just get really sad and worried because time goes by so fast. I wish I can get a time machine and go back to the era where flash games were hot and when I was younger. I had self-esteem issues in the past (2nd grade I dealt with bullies and 3rd grade and 5th grade I felt like my family hated me and no one loved me). But to anyone who wants to end their life. Don't. There's always light at the end of the tunnel. Your partner is abusive, leave them. Just do the stuff that makes you feel happy and seek help.

 

well damn

 

What to do when the only thing I want to do is run away from my home and lay down on a hill and watch the stars? What to do when the only thing I want to do is just walk, and walk, without any reason or destiny? What to do when the only thing I want to do is making my vaper run out of battery in one drag? What to do when I stay up until 4am in the morning thinking why am I still alive? What to do when I want to break my wall in one punch? What to do when I feel that the universe has forgotten about me and my existence? What to do when I feel that nobody cares about me? What to do when I feel that all my friends are just acting that they don’t even care about me? What to do when I want to jump from a bridge to just know how it feels? What to do when the only thing I think about is death? What to do when I feel like I’m drowning but I can still breath? But, what to do when I don’t even want to breath anymore? What to do when the only thing I want to do is just shot myself? What to do when the only thing I want to do is disappear and don’t come back anymore? I want somebody to help me... I want somebody to take care about me... I want somebody that feels like I’m important to him... I don’t want to become crazy... I don’t want to freak out... Please...

 

Sltg28 I will help you. I will take care of you. You are important to me.

 

Thank you. That makes me feel slightly better.

 

We can start a convo to talk about this kind of stuff if you like. You sound like you need someone to talk to.

 

Please...

 

Dude. You are an amazing person that I have respect for. I care about you. Try to drown out those dark thoughts with positive thoughts. You are amazing and don't take away your life. Please, never do

 

Thank you too.

 

No problem. I mean that. You are really good and amazing

 

so, you all might call me a pussy and some other sh.it but one of my favorite music artists died last year and I wasn't affected by it at first but since it was his birthday they other day and more of music is still being posted. It makes me really sad hearing his music has really affected and also last year one of my friends died and so did my grandfather. And recently I've been having dark thoughts about death, and I really don't understand what my mind is going through.

 

i think about death sometimes to, and when I am it's a scary picture in my head, so. many. thoughts. of. death.

 

i also had thoughts of death but my one friend was there for me

 

with this dumb virus its kinda hard... mainly all my friends can't come over

 

yea the virus is TRASH altho i can play fortnite more...

 

for me its call of duty warzone, I play with my friends. The death thoughts are really bad when I'm lost in my thoughts trying to fall asleep

 

same really i used to do that

 

I think about why THA fu.ck I’m still on earth

 

meh