Pour Your Heart Out

does anyone ever get depressed because hundreds of talented track makers have left this game without a second guess and nowadays only a thousand or so people are on each day

 

95% of the time I spend on freerider I spend making tracks, and that has always been the case for me; it's what I love about the game. I'm one of the only people still playing freerider who was part of the once thriving (now nonexistent) color version of this game. When that site died, I moved onto fr2.me and kept on creating. Creativity is at the heart of this game. One of the main reasons I started playing this game again after so many years of being away was to stoke my creativity through creative play. Since being back I have been blown away by the ingenuity of the community here. Maple's drawings have floored me. Ness's dream machine is amazing. I discovered tetrationiscool, who is an absolute genius, as well as so many other inspiring track makers.
Back in the BHR days there weren't very many people playing but there were always cool new tracks being posted. Instead of bemoaning the good old days we should keep pushing boundaries and keep having creative fun! I know I am.

 

wise words.

 

"Pour your heart out" nah thaz what a canvas is for

 

Do you guys know when some old tracks 10 years old and others say a decade old. Isn't it kinda weird. Elibloodthirst you're a mod correct? can you explain this phenomenon

 

Isn't trainer Bob kind of savage? If you don't get what I mean just look at how many people played the first trainer bob level versus the last which is only 10 levels. During those levels, trainer bob single handedly made 11.7 million players stop playing... Interestingly, more people played the first level of the "training wheels off" campaign which means that of those 11.7 million people, 700,000 people couldn't manage to beat trainer Bob's last level, or they didn't try because they knew his skill was too much

 

this would have been a cool comment if you knew that plays is the amount of times the page is loaded and not who individually opens it

 

My uncle died of cancer

 

Well life goes on what can u do

 

Sorry for your loss

 

I also lost my uncle to cancer a little over a year ago. My grandpa is currently fighting it again. Cancers an awful thing, I’m sorry for your loss

 

I've had a couple family members die of it. It's horrible. He was diagnosed only 6 weeks ago, pancreatic and liver. The second I heard I knew it was a matter of time

 

we all get it. i lost 2 grandpas my stepdad and 1 friend to cancer... cancer is manmade. food- and pharmaindustry work together to make us sick and then they can cure us..why the helll else should bayer buy monsanto?.. everthing u drink everything u eat that not came from ur garden makes u sick...all the preservatives and artificial flavors are carcinogenic poison.

 

should i stop eating takis?

 

Not quite sure about that chief. Heighted by it? Yes but it's always been there.

 

two words; f**k cancer.
i recently lost both my grandpa and grandma due to cancer, with my grandpa having bone cancer that moved to his heart and my grandma having pancreatic moved to her lungs. its rough.

 

*crunch*

 

So I don't know if I said this yet because it's been awhile since I said anything in this thread but my uncle has pancreatic cancer. His back is also flat so he uses a cane. He has to get injections every Friday and he has to have needles in his back. He has done 6 months of kemo so far. He also has 2 jobs.
My family is poor I hate to admit it. I help out as much as I can by paying the cable bill , buying groceries and pretty much helping out on anything. I do wanna start playing this game again but so much stuff is going on. I just quit music 2 days ago. I was gonna start a podcast but I broke my mic and I don't feel like buying a new one.
I just checked what's going on once in a while. This community is strong and will never die.

 

A bit of a life update here.

I'm reaching the end of my secondary schooling and I'm struggling to focus on most things in life. I pretty much go to bed at midnight every day now and although I get over 7 hours of sleep, I feel I'm not doing myself any good. I struggle to get out of bed and go to school and I often come to school a bit late. In class in the mornings I struggle to focus and my body just feels so dehydrated and hot (I don't drink enough water during the day).

When I come home I am a massive procrastinator and put off a lot of homework. At times I barely get work finished before they are due. I'm lucky I have a great memory and do well in school because if I didn't, I'd be failing some subjects the way I finish work. I get A's (around 80%) for most of my subjects, but I've noticed the grades dropped slightly in the subjects I don't focus on or are much harder. I've told myself I will lock in come to the exams (which are the most important part) but I can't get out of my daily routine. I just listen to music and watch YouTube a lot at home and barely get any work finished. I don't even play many games, even I haven't played FRHD as much as I used to.

I barely use my phone compared to other people and it's only to scroll through socials briefly or play games, I feel out of touch with my mates. When my mates say "oi tp you coming out tonight?" on Fridays, I tell them "ye maybe" or "Probably" and I end up eating dinner at home, seeing what they're doing from snaps on snapchat and just watch the footy (Australian rules football) on tv or do my usual procrastination.

I've never really jerked off much but at one stage, I was doing it every day as I had nothing else better to do and I felt so guilty with myself. I've decided to stop it completely to see if it makes a difference in my mentality and my life. All my friends drive and I've barely been behind the wheel, I have no interest in driving at all atm. I don't have a job and I just have all this money my parents have given me sitting in my bank account as I barely spend my money on food or clothes.

I'm expecting an above-average result at the end of the year for my schooling but I don't know what I want to do after university as a job (leaning down a science path). I'm scared I'm going to go to uni and waste my money for nothing. I have heaps of hobbies but none of them lead me to a possible career. I go to athletics training to clear things up and train my ass off to only burn out and cramp towards the end due to dehydration and not doing my core exercises. I've noticed issues with my posture and body structure (nothing major) but I want to fix them but I'm just too lazy and I can't find 20 minutes to do core exercises to fix them. Although I'm really fit and healthy, I am underweight (I'm over 5 foot 10 inches tall or 178cm and weigh 63kg) and I struggle to put on weight even though I probably eat more than people 20kg + heavier than me, it's just genetics and my active lifestyle. I'm extremely lean and quite strong for my size (demonstrated by my athleticism) but although I have dumbbells and a bench at home, I barely use them considering I can't even gain any body mass and it's just a slow increase naturally and from getting taller. My dad says he was the exact same at my age and was able to do amazing things like dunk a basketball at 5 foot 9 inches and was a gun at every sport he played but I'm more conscious about getting bigger and not being called "skinny". I don't care if my abilities can surprise people because the first thing people see when they look at my is how I'm not as built as others and I hate being judged.

I don't feel like a failure but when I look at my older sister and her life, I feel like I've achieved nothing. She has a good job, moving out of the family house in the next year, has a good boyfriend and is living a great life. I have no idea where I see myself in the next 2 years. I worry I will drift away from my mates, some I've been friends with for over 13 years since primary school. I am not interested in girls atm but I want to interact with them more in the coming years and finally get into a relationship (more of a reason to get bigger as girls like that). Btw, guys, I don't have depression, anxiety or anything like that, I'm just worried that my current habits are taking me down the wrong path. I turned 18 almost 4 months ago and I don't do things many other people my age do, I'm just this smart kid who has heaps of hobbies but doesn't drive, doesn't have a job, has all these skills but nothing to use them for and barely does anything fun. Sure, I go out with my mates here and there, but atm it's been a while since I've done that and I feel like I'm just extremely boring. I do go to parties when invited and drink alcohol now I'm 18 (I live in Australia for those who don't know) but everything else I do doesn't make me feel 18.

I tell my friends about what I do at home and in life and they say "tp, you have so much potential, just f'ing drive mate and fix your daily routine and life will open up for you and be way more fun mate." That, along with my family saying things to me, has motivated me to fix my life. Again, I'm probably living a better life than most other people as money is not a problem for us, but the way I go about it I'm really critical of and I could be so much better. I'm going to Italy in January and February in 2025 (I am of Italian background and have family there) and I've never been to Europe so I'm so excited. I want to work towards that and improve myself so I feel like I earned a holiday. I will be posting my progress here but something to take out from this for everyone else is try and get out of routines early so it doesn't hinder your life in the future. And if you have a goal you want to strive to, stick to your program. Failing to stay consistent shows failure, and although failure is good for progression, losing consistency makes achieving that goal hard and demonstrates lack of desire or focus. I feel a lot of today's society has a short attention span for some things, have ADHD or have absolutely 0 drive to achieve things in life. Lock in now before it's too late.

To start, I'm gonna research more what I want to do after I finish secondary school, update my resume, change the environment I do my homework from my bedroom to the dining room table, start driving more, go to bed before midnight, go out with my mates more when I can and sticking to a proper schedule for my homework and do core/strength exercises. Are the issues I'm facing normal for people my age? Comment what you think and some things I could do differently to help turn my life around.

That's all for now.

 

Same fr I'm 6'1 and I am 57 kg. (I aint lying that aint what I do. plus 6'1 isnt even that tall yet). I think it's helpful to have a positive mindset regarding being skinny, as many people struggle to lose weight. In saying that, yes, it sucks, and your idk abt u but my wrists are skinny af as a testament to my weight, but look it is, at the end of the day, out of your control. the best thing you can do is drink water to expand your stomach to then be able to eat more (two birds w one stone yk).