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I feel upset, sad, sick, but still happy at the same time.I'm of course upset because I had to send my computer back in, I was in the middle of a video game and couldn't wait to start making videos again. I'm also upset because I have been sick for 5 months, and haven't been to school for the entire time, so of course I miss my friends and school ("Missing school?????" you are probably thinking; I also didn't think it was possible, until I wasn't at school for 5 months.). Of course missing school will have consequences, so once I start feeling better, I will be home schooled most likely through summer to get all caught up, which I am upset about. I am also upset that there is no cure to my sickness. In case you didn't already know, I'm sick with CMV, which is a virus, so there is no cure, just waiting it out. I'm upset about this because everything would be better if I wasn't sick. I've already mainly recovered mentally (there were some bad bad days), and all ready to do everything, but the moment that I try to, I feel very very sick. Now you may be thinking: "Why don't you just push through feeling terrible?" Well the answer is quite simple: I am pushing as hard as I can 24/7, but even then, I just cant physically do it. I have the time, the resources and the willpower to do the home schooling and other things, but I just can't. Just one thing is stopping me, and I cant fix it. You can probably understand why I would be upset about that.

I'm sad because well everything. Most of the stuff above make me sad, but there is more than that. This entire ordeal with the sickness has taken a huge toll on my family, and I really don't like seeing them like that. It's got everybody stressed and upset, and with my dad working 2 jobs and going to school, he doesn't really have the time to take care of me (ie: get me water when I can't get up), and then there's my mom, who could lose her job that she has for ~20 years at any moment due to outsourcing, and she is our main income, so that's got everybody stressed out, especially mom, who hasn't made a resume in ~20 years, and the stuff she works with is customized for her and her co-workers, so getting a new job would be difficult.

But through all the frustration and sadness, I'm still happy. This is for one reason, and that is because I have the computer of my dreams. Back in the bad bad days, it was getting to the point that the medicine wasn't doing much and I was close to being suicidal. The only thing that could pull me out of all of that is something that would make me super super happy; something that I have wanted for a long time. There was only one thing, a $2500 computer. Yup. Anyway, one day it was really really bad, and I HAD to go to a doctors appointment, but I just couldn't go, I was getting all stressed, and everything was going to ****. That was when my mom ordered the computer. The moment I saw the receipt I could already feel the stress going away. And when it eventually came (a week ago I think), it all fully went away, and I was just happy. Since then, nothing, including having to send the computer back, could make me unhappy or stressed, because I know that I have the computer of my dreams. Another thing I should mention, I was really upset (as much as I could be) when my mom ordered the computer. That was because we are kinda in a financial situation (not too bad), and we didn't have $2500 to spend. So, my mom bought a $2500 computer to make me less stressed with money we didn't have. Now you may be wondering why this made me upset, parents are supposed to worry about financial stuff. Well, I am very loving and care about my family, and don't want our lives to be worse than they already are, and also I really don't want to be poor.

Congratulations on reading all of this, now forget it all as if this never happened.

 

I feel unmotivated, I wish I could see my future and be sure that all the effort I'm trying to put into my life will pay off.

 

I feel you bro.

I'm feeling unmotivated as I've laid in bed for the past week because of being sick. I don't have the strongest immune system, and there's times that I can't breathe for about a minute because of coughing fits. I've also lost my voice because of said coughing, which also sucks. This also happens about once every couple of months (being out of school for a week+), so I usually have shittons of homework. Oh, and I can't really sleep (again because of excessive coughing).

I'm happy though, as I finally got official author and I'm getting to explore more of the artistic part of me, which never really comes up in my normal life. This community has made laying in bed pretty cool, so thanks for that

 

i am sad because my auto does not work on here and you guys cannot see how much effort i put into this for my fans

 

explosive

 

fccray is still my favorite person lol

 

daum, almost as bad as a woman.

 

agreed!

 

They are my main ones
I try not to use them

 

people at my school have absolutely terrible grammar, so is sometimes necessary when talking to them. It depends on the moment, but I try not to use the others as well, not great emotions to feel from another person.

 

I feel you, people need to learn proper grammar.

 

*bump*

 

Spirited Away is a good movie.

 

I want to f*** this girl but shes so completely stupid and annoying I cant stand being around her or talking to her. But im conflicted because shes up for letting me slang the d. What do I do?

 

Stabbing

 

Whos te cutest out of you guys just wondering.

 

Me and armator tbh

 

me and hotman7777 tbh