I've been feeling terrible about myself lately
Thinking the truth, and it hurts.
I've realised that, especially due to all my efforts to be nice, almost every single pro player or big player in the community doesn't like me.
I am not respected by the community in the slightest.
I have nothing to my name, besides a ton of points, if that.
^ not trying to flex the points, I really dont want anyone to get confused, so I will just say it now.
I've been horribly depressed the last month, due to numerous reasons. That is a reason why I posted about my 4th place in the world cup 4 in the world cup 5 forum. Though, Cerulean(sharkfin) thought that was rightfully annoying, and most likely other thought that as well, and I truly apologize for that again. I really didn't mean any type of flexing in any way with that, I even accept the fact that I got lucky with the placements, and that I didn't truly deserve to win.
And about my ghosting in general, I really dont like talking about that. No matter what I say, people will criticize me on every little thing, and never be happy, so I don't even want to dip into the spacebar topic again.
But what has really brought back my bad feelings is this: the reminder of how minimal I really am to this community, how expendable I am, and how disliked I am
i came back, and I wanted to get away from the bad relationships, but I just came right back to them on this game. I've had several breakups over the past 8 months, with everyone leaving first, most likely due to me not being "good enough", and it just stings when I come back, and people still don't like me.
I've been feeling really down, and with nowhere to go, and with nothing else to do
You can call me a drama queen, or an emo, or depressed, I don't care, I just wanted to voice this right now.
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