Pour Your Heart Out

It sucks that you're having to grow up so soon. I hadn't really considered that this was something that could actually happen, or knew that an issue like this existed. I don't know how it feels, but I can imagine that it might incites a feeling of great loss. I'll pray for you.

You haven't repaid them in the worst way possible. There are much worse things that you could've become. As for your relationship with your father, all it takes is a little something here and there to show your appreciation for him. Just a small act of kindness would show that you're thinking of him, like offering to help move something or dropping your current task to help him look for something. Another way that you may be able to rekindle your relationship could be just making small talk. Like while he's driving you somewhere, if the trip will take some time, you can ask him a question about something that interests him, like a random question about bikes or shows that you guys have watched, or even "Do you remember the LEGO sets/Minecraft houses I used to build?" You could even ask about what he does for work.

As are you.

 

Not rlly going through anything serious rn, I am just worried about how my current friends' view of me are/is changing when they realized I draw furries. they keep being such assholes (whenever they see me drawing, they say "are you drawing FURRIES???" super loud for everyone to hear), and I think ppl are startin' to not like me cuz of that (which is stupid but it is probably true). I have some friends that are chill and dgaf, but I just don't want to become depressed just because I am doing what I enjoy

 

don't give a shït about what haters think just do you

 

valid

 

When they react after seeing you draw furries, you can ask them "Okay, and?" They'll either say something discriminatory or mumble about how it's "kinda weird." If they say something not-so-inclusive, you can politely ask them why it's weird, funny, or whatever. Basically, ask them why it's "weird," "funny," or why they react the way they do when you're drawing something you like. Bottom line, it's just something you're interested in, as simple as someone choosing to draw a bunch of sharks instead of an anglerfish, a zebra, or a slice of a tomato. Or you could skip all of that and just tell them you'd appreciate if they'd stop acting so surprised and stuff whenever you're drawing furries because it's getting annoying.

 

thx for the advice!

 

I strongly wish and believe that the world would be better if not for my presence in some peoples lives.

 

and why do you think that?

 

this probably doesn't help at all, but realistically what even is there about you that has made your existence a negative on people's lives. because there really isn't. and sure, you might think of plenty of stuff. but im sure the people in your life see the good in you. if they would be better without you they would have cut you off already