Pour Your Heart Out

its hard to be optimistic abt this, I have (yet again??????) been through this before...there was a girl i liked but i never had the balls to confess my feelings to her for 5 whole months man. and when i did (the day before a big school trip too wtf to me) she said that she liked someone else, i dont know who though. i am NOT the most handsome guy around, but i tried, it sucked. I wrote a whole like letter to her through her dm on instagram, she responded, saying that she admired that "courage" i had to say that s**t to her, but didnt reciprocate those feelings. This left a pretty deep wound in me, but it heals eventually.

The same goes to you. The world doesnt revolve around people, it will never go your way, for the most part. It's really up to you whether or not you accept pain and at least be friends with her, or you dont reconcile and leave yourself in a rut of grief and melancholy.

 

When in pain, seek religion and repentance, not pleasure.

 

Do NOT go for your brothers gf

 

When in pain, search for things that will heal you. If that’s religion and repentance, focus on that. Religious guilt, or guilt of any kind is not healing at all. Do not feel guilty for not being religious enough, if that’s a concern. Focus on things that are genuinely wholesome and helpful towards your journey in life. For me, I’ve grown closer to who I believe to be my Savior, but I’ve seen many people ruin themselves wondering why they’re not better on that aspect. Everyone has room to grow and learn, try your best to take a step back and truly see things clearly.

 

i'm pretty sure he's talking about going for his brothers gf's sister

 

Do NOT go for girls you should kiss BOYS

 

YESSS THIS MAN GETS MEEEE

 

how average convos with straight men actually go btw

 

I sent you the track code

 

yeah but i feel that would be weird

 

love the new pfp creasom

 

wrong thread I thinkering

 

I like how you’re telling men how men talk like what

keep it in the fam ig

 

im killing myself

 

Typed a long post and idk can't formalise it to words so gonna tl;dr

spoke to my sister about the divorce and events that led to me here and she's fully trauma blocked it and that's caused me into being really sad and crying lots.

 

I’m so sorry Eli

 

sorry for the divorce, as a teenager i cant even comprehend how its like to even date someone so i cant really help you except giving condolences

 

as i play this game i'm beginning to realize why i do it. i don't enjoy it at all. i just love the friends I've made here and am becoming obsessed with this thing I don't like. i feel obligated to make tracks and ghost and sh1t because everyone else is and if I don't I'm letting somebody that I look up to down. when I play this game I don't enjoy myself at all. i force myself to make tracks and ghost and interact in the discord sometimes so people will like me but I'm not likeable at all. i try to make people like to interact with me but no one does because I'm annoying and unstable and i try too hard. i don't have motivation for anything anymore besides sitting in my bed doing nothing. please don't like me or care about me if you don't want to. i don't care and if you pretend to like me you're making it worse for everyone.

 

Hey man, i gotta admit, when i first met you, i didn't even know who you were, now, you are one of the best people i ever had the luck of meeting. You aren't a burden for anyone, especially not for me, you don't have to ******* fit in with no one, you are weird guy, because you are, thats you, and you should never let anyone take that away from you. If people think you are weird, fudge them, eventually you will find someone, or some people, that find your vibe, or your personality, cool, you don't have to be liked but everybody, in fact, you dont have to be like by anybody but yourself, if you are happy with who you are, thats enough.

Also, I truly believe that no one gives a **** if you make tracks, or if you ghost tracks or whatever, you don't even have to play the game for us to like you, we like you for you, not for your achievements in game. There's people that don't even play the game that much, and we still love them. If you don't wanna ghost, don't, if you don't wanna draw, don't, both of these things require a high level of precision or creativity, and if you are not motivated to do it, you are not gonna show your true potential.

fudge being liked by people, just be who you are, and that guy is a really really cool person, which is weird yes, you are a bit weird, but so am i, and so is everyone. The moment you stop caring about what will others think, and start caring about what the fudge do you want, that's the moment you will really start enjoying life.

Also, taking a break from this game from time to time is highly recommended, it gets a bit stressful.

I do care for you, and i can assure you that there's other people in this game, or in the server, that care for you too. You are not alone, you have us, you have your family, and you also have your friends. Life is good, its full of color, its just waiting for you to discover the brush and start painting it the way you ******* like it.

 

Not my divorce or my sister's. My parents divorce from 2007 that lead to my mum dating a physical abuser/sexual abuser/paedophile. The toll it has taken on me is permanent