Pour Your Heart Out

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My uncle died of cancer

 

Well life goes on what can u do

 

Sorry for your loss

 

I also lost my uncle to cancer a little over a year ago. My grandpa is currently fighting it again. Cancers an awful thing, I’m sorry for your loss

 

I've had a couple family members die of it. It's horrible. He was diagnosed only 6 weeks ago, pancreatic and liver. The second I heard I knew it was a matter of time

 

we all get it. i lost 2 grandpas my stepdad and 1 friend to cancer... cancer is manmade. food- and pharmaindustry work together to make us sick and then they can cure us..why the helll else should bayer buy monsanto?.. everthing u drink everything u eat that not came from ur garden makes u sick...all the preservatives and artificial flavors are carcinogenic poison.

 

should i stop eating takis?

 

Not quite sure about that chief. Heighted by it? Yes but it's always been there.

 

two words; f**k cancer.
i recently lost both my grandpa and grandma due to cancer, with my grandpa having bone cancer that moved to his heart and my grandma having pancreatic moved to her lungs. its rough.

 

*crunch*

 

So I don't know if I said this yet because it's been awhile since I said anything in this thread but my uncle has pancreatic cancer. His back is also flat so he uses a cane. He has to get injections every Friday and he has to have needles in his back. He has done 6 months of kemo so far. He also has 2 jobs.
My family is poor I hate to admit it. I help out as much as I can by paying the cable bill , buying groceries and pretty much helping out on anything. I do wanna start playing this game again but so much stuff is going on. I just quit music 2 days ago. I was gonna start a podcast but I broke my mic and I don't feel like buying a new one.
I just checked what's going on once in a while. This community is strong and will never die.

 

A bit of a life update here.

I'm reaching the end of my secondary schooling and I'm struggling to focus on most things in life. I pretty much go to bed at midnight every day now and although I get over 7 hours of sleep, I feel I'm not doing myself any good. I struggle to get out of bed and go to school and I often come to school a bit late. In class in the mornings I struggle to focus and my body just feels so dehydrated and hot (I don't drink enough water during the day).

When I come home I am a massive procrastinator and put off a lot of homework. At times I barely get work finished before they are due. I'm lucky I have a great memory and do well in school because if I didn't, I'd be failing some subjects the way I finish work. I get A's (around 80%) for most of my subjects, but I've noticed the grades dropped slightly in the subjects I don't focus on or are much harder. I've told myself I will lock in come to the exams (which are the most important part) but I can't get out of my daily routine. I just listen to music and watch YouTube a lot at home and barely get any work finished. I don't even play many games, even I haven't played FRHD as much as I used to.

I barely use my phone compared to other people and it's only to scroll through socials briefly or play games, I feel out of touch with my mates. When my mates say "oi tp you coming out tonight?" on Fridays, I tell them "ye maybe" or "Probably" and I end up eating dinner at home, seeing what they're doing from snaps on snapchat and just watch the footy (Australian rules football) on tv or do my usual procrastination.

I've never really jerked off much but at one stage, I was doing it every day as I had nothing else better to do and I felt so guilty with myself. I've decided to stop it completely to see if it makes a difference in my mentality and my life. All my friends drive and I've barely been behind the wheel, I have no interest in driving at all atm. I don't have a job and I just have all this money my parents have given me sitting in my bank account as I barely spend my money on food or clothes.

I'm expecting an above-average result at the end of the year for my schooling but I don't know what I want to do after university as a job (leaning down a science path). I'm scared I'm going to go to uni and waste my money for nothing. I have heaps of hobbies but none of them lead me to a possible career. I go to athletics training to clear things up and train my ass off to only burn out and cramp towards the end due to dehydration and not doing my core exercises. I've noticed issues with my posture and body structure (nothing major) but I want to fix them but I'm just too lazy and I can't find 20 minutes to do core exercises to fix them. Although I'm really fit and healthy, I am underweight (I'm over 5 foot 10 inches tall or 178cm and weigh 63kg) and I struggle to put on weight even though I probably eat more than people 20kg + heavier than me, it's just genetics and my active lifestyle. I'm extremely lean and quite strong for my size (demonstrated by my athleticism) but although I have dumbbells and a bench at home, I barely use them considering I can't even gain any body mass and it's just a slow increase naturally and from getting taller. My dad says he was the exact same at my age and was able to do amazing things like dunk a basketball at 5 foot 9 inches and was a gun at every sport he played but I'm more conscious about getting bigger and not being called "skinny". I don't care if my abilities can surprise people because the first thing people see when they look at my is how I'm not as built as others and I hate being judged.

I don't feel like a failure but when I look at my older sister and her life, I feel like I've achieved nothing. She has a good job, moving out of the family house in the next year, has a good boyfriend and is living a great life. I have no idea where I see myself in the next 2 years. I worry I will drift away from my mates, some I've been friends with for over 13 years since primary school. I am not interested in girls atm but I want to interact with them more in the coming years and finally get into a relationship (more of a reason to get bigger as girls like that). Btw, guys, I don't have depression, anxiety or anything like that, I'm just worried that my current habits are taking me down the wrong path. I turned 18 almost 4 months ago and I don't do things many other people my age do, I'm just this smart kid who has heaps of hobbies but doesn't drive, doesn't have a job, has all these skills but nothing to use them for and barely does anything fun. Sure, I go out with my mates here and there, but atm it's been a while since I've done that and I feel like I'm just extremely boring. I do go to parties when invited and drink alcohol now I'm 18 (I live in Australia for those who don't know) but everything else I do doesn't make me feel 18.

I tell my friends about what I do at home and in life and they say "tp, you have so much potential, just f'ing drive mate and fix your daily routine and life will open up for you and be way more fun mate." That, along with my family saying things to me, has motivated me to fix my life. Again, I'm probably living a better life than most other people as money is not a problem for us, but the way I go about it I'm really critical of and I could be so much better. I'm going to Italy in January and February in 2025 (I am of Italian background and have family there) and I've never been to Europe so I'm so excited. I want to work towards that and improve myself so I feel like I earned a holiday. I will be posting my progress here but something to take out from this for everyone else is try and get out of routines early so it doesn't hinder your life in the future. And if you have a goal you want to strive to, stick to your program. Failing to stay consistent shows failure, and although failure is good for progression, losing consistency makes achieving that goal hard and demonstrates lack of desire or focus. I feel a lot of today's society has a short attention span for some things, have ADHD or have absolutely 0 drive to achieve things in life. Lock in now before it's too late.

To start, I'm gonna research more what I want to do after I finish secondary school, update my resume, change the environment I do my homework from my bedroom to the dining room table, start driving more, go to bed before midnight, go out with my mates more when I can and sticking to a proper schedule for my homework and do core/strength exercises. Are the issues I'm facing normal for people my age? Comment what you think and some things I could do differently to help turn my life around.

That's all for now.

 

Same fr I'm 6'1 and I am 57 kg. (I aint lying that aint what I do. plus 6'1 isnt even that tall yet). I think it's helpful to have a positive mindset regarding being skinny, as many people struggle to lose weight. In saying that, yes, it sucks, and your idk abt u but my wrists are skinny af as a testament to my weight, but look it is, at the end of the day, out of your control. the best thing you can do is drink water to expand your stomach to then be able to eat more (two birds w one stone yk).

 

this might be too much info given youre still in school and probably dont have the time/motivation/money to invest in what im writing below, but i think this could benefit ppl anyways + i love this topic so here we go

if you wanna gain weight/muscle mass without just gaining fat, you need to be super conscious of what youre eating. both volume and what macros youre eating. imo it's harder to clean bulk than to simply cut, but if you have the hunger of a typical teen boy it may not be such a slog lol. to gain weight you need to be eating >20% of your caloric maintenance (can be calculated over a couple weeks using scales + diet plan, or online calculators like this: https://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyle/weight-loss/in-depth/calorie-calculator/itt-20402304) with an intense focus on hitting macro split of 40% protein/25% carbs/35% fats. putting in the height/age/weight/activity levels youve briefly outlined in your post, your caloric maintenance would be somewhere around 2500cl-2900cl, so youd ideally start eating an extra 500cl-600cl per day minimum, maybe more if you do a lot of cardio-intensive exercise (running, afl, tennis, swimming, cycling etc etc). this, coupled with regular gym sessions - around 30-60 mins 3-5 times per week, focus on compound movements/progressive overload etc - you will gain weight, albeit slowly (probs around 250-750g per week). ofc this can be expedited with a dirty bulk, but youll gain more fat this way - just depends on what your goal is. for best results, stick to a stringent bulk diet for 4 weeks, relax it for 2 weeks, and repeat as much as you like - youll see better and more sustainable results like this, than maintaining a strict diet over a long period of time with no breaks

alternatively, if you want to lose weight but gain muscle mass, you just do the opposite. eat 10-20% below your caloric maintenance, make sure to get in 10k steps per day, maybe add in 1-2 HIIT/LIIT cardio sessions per week, and get in 3-5 weight training sessions per week. im in a cut rn, eating 2000-2200cl/per day with a macro split of 50% protein/30% carbs/20% fats and im seeing good, sustainable progress towards my weight goal. again, diet strictly in 4-week stints and have a break at maintenance for 2 weeks, then continue. it hardly feels like a diet either; im eating almost 200g protein per day, so im never hungry

for more excellent advice on cutting/bulking/workouts/fitness tips, check out jeff nippard and dr mike's renaissance periodization; both use peer-reviewed studies to back what they say, and most of what ive said here has come from them.

also tplacella consider having more salt/electrolytes alongside drinking more to avoid cramping, will help heaps. might add something in about uni at some point, but i need to get back to work lol

 

So my biological mom overdosed. Doesn't necessarily bother me but I remember saying something about her like 4 years ago. I haven't seen her in 17 years and now I'll never see but that's not saying I want too in the first place.

 

Just weird she killed herself 3 days before my bday. I don't know if it's my fault

 

I don't know how to feel right now because I'm not really shocked. She was always hooked on pills and I hated her. But now that I know she's dead I kinda feel bad because I think it is my fault because I don't want to see her. Happened unexpectedly and my family is going crazy now because they want everyone to help pay for the funeral but my mom doesn't deserve a funeral she neglected me she let my dad and his friends abuse me and you expect everyone to help pay for her funeral. Hell no she brought this all on herself. I'm not saying she deserved to die I'm saying she could of fixed herself. She went to places to help her but she just pushed it away. Maybe if she cared for me then I would care for her.

 

its not your fault bro, don't blame yourself for this.