Pour Your Heart Out

I agree with you that you need therapy, but not an asylum. When so many things are going on, it can get very difficult to make sense of your thoughts and the world. Being able to talk to someone for a good 30 minutes or an hour every week can help slow things down and allow you to tackle each situation one at a time, so I do think you should be involved with someone that is able to help you work through these things. A lot of what you wrote in your diary seems to indicate that you're not in a great place right now, and that you're dealing with a lot of different trials, which can be difficult to tell friends about, because you don't know what to focus on. It's up to you, but I definitely encourage you to talk to at least someone you trust about this.

 

I've had no personal phone for a week now and its been ******* bliss. Take a break occasionally lads

 

unc forgot this generation is addicted to screens

 

been in a darker-than-usual place lately. something icky happened last month and since then i've been in a constant state of anxiety and medication isn't helping me anymore. i've the motivation for nothing. this on top of all the issues i've already been having for the past 19 years lol.

 

i'm averaging 2 minutes a day on my phone
probably on my laptop 12 hours a day tho

 

i am tired. very very tired. i will be driving to norway next year.

 

You got this man

 

I know no one really cares but I came out as gay recently and I'm having problems telling one person. My uncle is the hardest person to talk to and this is the hardest thing to do. It's been stressing me out a lot because he's very vocal about the stuff going on the LGBTQ community so I'm scared he's gonna neglect me. I mean he probably knows because you can hear it in my voice and I recently got my ears pierced with diamond studs but my voice is the giveaway but I'm afraid to speak up

 

fact of the matter is most of the time people will pick love as opposed to disconnection. I've been in the loop with a lot of my friends coming out (yes, there have been several), they've all had someone they were worried wouldn't accept them. all of them (the ones they were worried about) accepted the change with love rather than malice.
you can do this my dude. I'm willing to bet your uncle won't reject you because of who you choose to be. i may not know him, but I do know people, and most people don't just neglect because of a change such as this.

 

Dang I was hoping to make a joke here only to find that there are actual serious conversations going on rn

 

yeah wait hold on why do gay ppl speak like that? like not to be rude at all it's just something I noticed...

 

Well he's really hard to talk to in general because he has an attitude half the time so I don't know what's he's going to do. I might just be overthinking or something I'm just trying to make it so he figures out himself because maybe he won't react how I think he will or I'll probably just tell him next month on my birthday.

 

Wdym

 

I think they're referring to the stereotypical "gay person" voice with higher pitch, and highly-enunciated vowels / S's / etc. There are plenty of gay people I've met who don't talk anything like the stereotype, probably more that don't than those that do. But I think the answer is proximity. Gay men are more likely to casually hang out with women than straight men, since there's usually more relatability for them, and they don't have the same concern of making women feel uncomfortable. So they're more likely to pick up more feminine speech patterns. There's also a sort of, self-fulfilling prophecy effect I feel, where if enough people expect someone to act a certain way, they'll subconsciously end up acting more like those expectations.

 

been there. i know it may seem kinda hard but id tell him. if he doesn't accept you, that's his problem UNLESS he actually starts neglecting you as you mentioned. if you're afraid he'll seriously neglect you, i would wait. he seems like a very unpleasant person. im not the best at giving advice but i hope it helps a lil bit at least lol. just know u can talk here and ppl will support u <3

 

thanks

 

the way the stereotypical "gay accent" developed is actually pretty interesting.

 

Ooooo

 

Yeah I'm gonna wait a long time because we already have problems and I don't wanna put another problem on him and I'm glad there's supportive people <3