Pour Your Heart Out

14s fine, lots of people are official then, some of my friends started dating at 13 lol. Least you can get a girlfriend, every girl I've ever liked who's liked me back has moved away, left the school, ended up hating me, stopped liking me/got a boyfriend, or I can't talk to them for numerous reasons. My luck f*cking sucks lol

 

What do you mean by "ugly duck"? And why is there a pent-up anger and frustration when you're with your friends?

That is quite a situation you are dealing with. It must suck to be in such a difficult position for so long, to decide whether to gamble on something so important. But I think it's worth it to try again. As dangerous as it might seem, the reality is that there are many people out there, and you've only met a small fraction of them. It's okay for you to guard your heart as you hopefully slowly heal, and to just take it slow and be cautious in getting to know people, but I don't think you should shy away from all relationships, especially platonic ones. In times of doubt, pray to God and ask him for guidance.

I haven't really experienced so much anxiety in my life, much less constant anxiety, so I can only imagine what it's like to wear your shoes, to be constantly worried about one thing or the other. It makes sense as to how it would pretty much mess everything up when you can't focus on the positive things in the present and have to only think about future problems. As for faking your smile and "happy nature," there is always a time and place. Obviously, don't go around complaining about your Big Mac not having enough lettuce at a funeral, but don't also keep your complaints only to yourself. People should value your authenticity and not only want to be around you when you're happy.
Also, no, you don't have to be happy if you have money. It sure contributes a lot by getting you the materialistic stuff you might want, but there's also a lot of stuff money can't buy. There's a lot more to life than just money. Asking for a healthy relationship with someone isn't as simple as shopping online for a new laptop.

Well, that's without a doubt a lot of stuff piled up on a not so good schedule. Do you know what changed from your first quarter to your second quarter?

 

idrk phone usage increase probably is a big factor
e; I guess I got too cocky and just started slacking off more because I thought q2 was gonna be the same

 

I'm not a very productive person either, so take my suggestions lightly, but you can try
getting your work done during school,
downloading an app that only allows you to spend a certain amount of time on your phone,
changing your environment, like heading to a library after school to do homework or staying at the school library for a bit,
deleting whatever apps might be distracting you,
or calling a friend to do homework together, either at home or at a physical location.
Maybe they'll help, I dunno. Hopefully you can change your habits. Feel free to give us updates as you work on it.

 

thanks man this helps, I appreciate your good ideas, will do updates

 

I know that this might not be what you want to hear right now, but I just read every word you wrote down, and I really appreciate what you've said here. These feelings you are having are unbelievably relatable to me right now, and I feel pretty much the same way about my life right now. Honestly, I don't have much else to say because I'm stuck in this too. But you're not alone with these feelings.

 

So relatable. My face is all scarred up from doing that.

 

bad shaving joke

 

should i be worried if i all of a sudden have a heavy interest in reading stuff by franz kafka, fyodor dostoevsky and kurt vonnegut

 

Many different reasons. I have really severe OCD and I get fewer obsessions after I injure myself. And for some reason it works the most on my face. But there are other more complicated reasons too.

 

So in september last year I loss health insurance without even knowing and was not told until late october. I got the paper about it in november saying I'm not covered. So I tried family care but I got denied because I make too much money and then just this month I tried to get insurance that's for the state I'm in and a lady on the phone told me I was gonna have to pay $400 a month but then in the middle of the call my phone loss connection and it hung up on her. Then that night I tried calling again and nothing happened. Then the next day I called again and someone else picked up and I gave him my information and he said I'll pay 291 a month but to get covered today I would have to pay 340 so I did and now I'm covered. I just feel like that was weird how I got disconnected to calling the next day to get charged less. Just wanted to share this because it's the first good thing to happen this year.

I hope everyone is having a good year and if you're not I hope it gets better. It's rough out there you just gotta keep your head up.

 

I feel like that's weird. At the end of the day insurance is a process of sale, and depending on how great they are at their job is what may determine how well they can help you with quotes and rates (to an extent)
Maybe someone can attest to this for me, but this is how I'm viewing it. Well wishes this year Fire Beats!

 

Do you go to a psychologist? you should

 

well she said no to me asking her out today so now I'm gonna be out of it for the next week. who else had a nice Valentine's Day?

 

didnt have the nerve to ask her out lol, I gotta work on that

 

hey man you got this. might not be this time around but you'll find a place and a time. it's the asking that's the hard part, that's the climax - from there it's not nearly as stressful
then again maybe don't take advice from the guy who just got rejected idc

 

let her ask you out







(i'm single)

 

fr. or just get good at being single and pretending you love it

 

hey, you'll find someone eventually

 

I do lots of different things. I have a psychiatrist and a therapist and I've experimented with different kinds of treatment. I'm really lucky because I have a ton of support