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I might leave

Discussion in 'Anything and everything Free Rider' started by xLegendx, Mar 8, 2017.

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xLegendx Active Member Official Author

Eh, I probably won't leave(and I can already hear CityShep coming to say I did this for attention lol) I'm looking forward to a lot of things thanks to all the support I get from y'all. Wish I could do more than a thanks, bc now I feel bad :/

xLegendx, Mar 9, 2017

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Char Free Rider HD Developer Official Author

xLegendx said: ↑

Eh, I probably won't leave(and I can already hear CityShep coming to say I did this for attention lol) I'm looking forward to a lot of things thanks to all the support I get from y'all. Wish I could do more than a thanks, bc now I feel bad :/
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Like CityShep is one to talk about attention.

Char, Mar 9, 2017

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Char said: ↑

Like CityShep is one to talk about attention.
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you can be funny at times char

spruce, Mar 9, 2017

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Char said: ↑

Like CityShep is one to talk about attention.
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boom explosion

Max007x, Mar 10, 2017

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Tommatito Casual Member Official Author

Do what you want but I would prefer if you stayed because I think your tracks are getting better and length of them doesn't matter and also have you read my argument for your "sorry" post and finally I usually get like 2 likes so please stay but if you want to leave do what you want.

Tommatito, Mar 10, 2017

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xLegendx Active Member Official Author

Tommatito said: ↑

Do what you want but I would prefer if you stayed because I think your tracks are getting better and length of them doesn't matter and also have you read my argument for your "sorry" post and finally I usually get like 2 likes so please stay but if you want to leave do what you want.
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Yes I read it :/

xLegendx, Mar 10, 2017

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atomic2 Member Official Author

xLegendx said: ↑

View attachment 13102 (This picture is me FYI)

I have no point here. My levels just take up space and are complete crap for someone my level. I'm in a few collabs now, and I'll see how thy do. I'm at about a 50/50 chance of leaving soon. I know a lot of you will be happy, a lot sad, most not caring, but whatever. My reasons being
1: It's just not as fun as it used to be. I know this is pretty stereotypical for someone to say but Idc. It's not exceptionally boring, it's just not quite as fun.
2: As stated, I'm crap. I feel like whenever I upload a level, people are always thinking "why is he so successful? He doesn't deserve it!" And that's partially true, I don't deserve anything. In the end, I don't matter. In the game or real life. My sole existence is to make others happy, because I'm just a waste of skin and bones and money, for my parents sake.
3: I'm dying (not literally). My levels just aren't doing good. This is the least important thing I've said so far, but it needs to be said. It's not yall's fault. It's mine. I know I need to do better. But I don't know why, but I can't focus long enough to make long amazing tracks. I feel guilty if I don't upload every day, but I feel guilty if I upload a short level. I can't win. I have almost 900 subscribers and my last 4 levels never went past 25 likes. That's embarrassing. Like I said, this one I care the least about. And if I quit, I'll still play, and be on the forums. And I'll get the mobile app too.
4: It's interfering with my school. I spend 6 hours+ on this game every day. Yes I have no life. And it's only at school. I can't pay attention and play at the same time but if I don't upload, it eats me up inside.
5: I am mentally and physically f*cked. I wake up, thinking "how am I going to make me want to kill myself today? If I do, I'm even more of a disappointment to everyone I know. I go to school and people literally walk by and, I sh*t you not this happened yesterday, say "die you ugly cow." It doesn't affect me much because worse has happened to me, but I'm useless. At lunch I sit alone. On the bus I act happy so I don't depress everyone. At home I'm alone because my parents don't think anything I say matters. I'm outside and I'm alone because nobody wants to be seen with somebody as ugly as me. And at school I'm made fun of, marginalized, and thrown out. And I have positives, maybe. If people get to know me, maybe they'd see I'm not just a horrible person. I keep to myself, I don't talk to anyone I don't know, so what did I do wrong? Maybe it's depression or something stupid like that but I don't think so. Maybe I do deserve every ounce of hate both online and IRL that I get. I must have done something because everybody on earth can't all be wrong when they treat me like crap, so what did I do?

Sorry if I sound whiny. I have no one to talk to and I have my entire life story on my info page, which is something I've never told anyone. Ive never been this in-depth about myself to anyone. Never told anyone (other than family) that I was molested, and homeless, etc. So I'd like to thank the entire FRHD community for being (mostly) nice people and making me feel comfortable enough so that I could say things like this. Should I leave?

If anyone wants to PM me in private for any reason, I'll speak to anyone about anything. Just ask anyone that knows anything about psychology want to be my little online therapist for a bit?
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Wow. First off, how long did it take to write that? Second, I think of you as a mentor bro. I look up to u. dont leeve

atomic2, Mar 10, 2017

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asfdlihaslwefuahsdkl Active Member Official Author

xLegendx said: ↑

Eh, I probably won't leave(and I can already hear CityShep coming to say I did this for attention lol) I'm looking forward to a lot of things thanks to all the support I get from y'all. Wish I could do more than a thanks, bc now I feel bad :/
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xLegendx said: ↑

Hope this thread gets some attention
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asfdlihaslwefuahsdkl, Mar 11, 2017

#28

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gun Forum Legend Team Blob Official Author

I don't play as much because of high school when i first started things at school meant nothing, 4 years later and i'm doing exams that choose my job, I mean right now i should be writing a reading response, studding for my maths exam tomorrow and planing another essay for commerce. but i don't "leave" i just take long breaks, at times up to a couple of months but ill always come back and make a few tracks now and then.
so dont leave just take a break and do other stuff, and come back when ever

gun, Mar 14, 2017

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Totoca12 Administrator Staff Member Administrator Forum Moderator Ghost Moderator Team Truck Official Author

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xLegendx said: ↑

View attachment 13102 (This picture is me FYI)

I have no point here. My levels just take up space and are complete crap for someone my level. I'm in a few collabs now, and I'll see how thy do. I'm at about a 50/50 chance of leaving soon. I know a lot of you will be happy, a lot sad, most not caring, but whatever. My reasons being
1: It's just not as fun as it used to be. I know this is pretty stereotypical for someone to say but Idc. It's not exceptionally boring, it's just not quite as fun.
2: As stated, I'm crap. I feel like whenever I upload a level, people are always thinking "why is he so successful? He doesn't deserve it!" And that's partially true, I don't deserve anything. In the end, I don't matter. In the game or real life. My sole existence is to make others happy, because I'm just a waste of skin and bones and money, for my parents sake.
3: I'm dying (not literally). My levels just aren't doing good. This is the least important thing I've said so far, but it needs to be said. It's not yall's fault. It's mine. I know I need to do better. But I don't know why, but I can't focus long enough to make long amazing tracks. I feel guilty if I don't upload every day, but I feel guilty if I upload a short level. I can't win. I have almost 900 subscribers and my last 4 levels never went past 25 likes. That's embarrassing. Like I said, this one I care the least about. And if I quit, I'll still play, and be on the forums. And I'll get the mobile app too.
4: It's interfering with my school. I spend 6 hours+ on this game every day. Yes I have no life. And it's only at school. I can't pay attention and play at the same time but if I don't upload, it eats me up inside.
5: I am mentally and physically f*cked. I wake up, thinking "how am I going to make me want to kill myself today? If I do, I'm even more of a disappointment to everyone I know. I go to school and people literally walk by and, I sh*t you not this happened yesterday, say "die you ugly cow." It doesn't affect me much because worse has happened to me, but I'm useless. At lunch I sit alone. On the bus I act happy so I don't depress everyone. At home I'm alone because my parents don't think anything I say matters. I'm outside and I'm alone because nobody wants to be seen with somebody as ugly as me. And at school I'm made fun of, marginalized, and thrown out. And I have positives, maybe. If people get to know me, maybe they'd see I'm not just a horrible person. I keep to myself, I don't talk to anyone I don't know, so what did I do wrong? Maybe it's depression or something stupid like that but I don't think so. Maybe I do deserve every ounce of hate both online and IRL that I get. I must have done something because everybody on earth can't all be wrong when they treat me like crap, so what did I do?

Sorry if I sound whiny. I have no one to talk to and I have my entire life story on my info page, which is something I've never told anyone. Ive never been this in-depth about myself to anyone. Never told anyone (other than family) that I was molested, and homeless, etc. So I'd like to thank the entire FRHD community for being (mostly) nice people and making me feel comfortable enough so that I could say things like this. Should I leave?

If anyone wants to PM me in private for any reason, I'll speak to anyone about anything. Just ask anyone that knows anything about psychology want to be my little online therapist for a bit?
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Don't leave, bro. People can be mean, life can be hard, family can be complicated, school isn't always full of happiness, but there's hope in life. And you need to pursue that, because hope is what make you strong, and help you to not give up. I know that sometimes we just want to give up of everything but you need to get up and be strong. Not for showing the people that you are strong, but for your own happiness and health. And that's might reflect on other people around you. If they are able to see you happy and confident, they might be able to see you in a different way. Insecure people like to putting down people that they claim to be already on the ground, fallen. But they can't put down someone who's on a higher spot than they. And it's not about hierarchy, it's about mindset, confidence and accepting who you are. You're not ugly, dumb or anything like that. As everyone you are special, or at least you have potential to be. It's just about be yourself and finding the right way to find true happiness, not letting anyone try to bring you down.

Totoca12, Mar 14, 2017

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xLegendx Active Member Official Author

Totoca12 said: ↑

Don't leave, bro. People can be mean, life can be hard, family can be complicated, school isn't always full of happiness, but there's hope in life. And you need to pursue that, because hope is what make you strong, and help you to not give up. I know that sometimes we just want to give up of everything but you need to get up and be strong. Not for showing the people that you are strong, but for your own happiness and health. And that's might reflect on other people around you. If they are able to see you happy and confident, they might be able to see you in a different way. Insecure people like to putting down people that they claim to be already on the ground, fallen. But they can't put down someone who's on a higher spot than they. And it's not about hierarchy, it's about mindset, confidence and accepting who you are. You're not ugly, dumb or anything like that. As everyone you are special, or at least you have potential to be. It's just about be yourself and finding the right way to find true happiness, not letting anyone try to bring you down.
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Wish I could give you more than a thank you. You can't imagine how great it feels to hear that people are trying to help, even doing something as insignificant as giving advice. Thanks for listening

xLegendx, Mar 14, 2017

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Chapter Well-Known Member Official Author

that face

Chapter, Mar 14, 2017

#32
Chapter Well-Known Member Official Author

seems u have some problems.

Chapter, Mar 14, 2017

#33
Chapter Well-Known Member Official Author

Char said: ↑

Couple things you need to do.

1) Go for walks, get exercise, does the brain good.
2) Look into meditation.
3) Don't take this game seriously.
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Totally Char do this everyday.

Chapter, Mar 14, 2017

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xLegendx Active Member Official Author

Chapter said: ↑

that face
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What, my face?

xLegendx, Mar 14, 2017

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XYZmystery Active Member Official Author

I will gladly welcome you to the club of people who just sit around on the forums and never upload. It is way more relaxed! But as far as the other stuff dont even worry about it, if you put yourself out there you will find your people. I mean we are your people but i meant some real life people. Good luck man, we got you either way. xLegendx

XYZmystery, Mar 21, 2017

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xLegendx Active Member Official Author

XYZmystery said: ↑

I will gladly welcome you to the club of people who just sit around on the forums and never upload. It is way more relaxed! But as far as the other stuff dont even worry about it, if you put yourself out there you will find your people. I mean we are your people but i meant some real life people. Good luck man, we got you either way. xLegendx
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Yeah I'm a bit more laid back now. I don't sweat the small things. I had food thrown at me today and I didn't cry online about it. Thanks for the advice

xLegendx, Mar 21, 2017

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XYZmystery said: ↑

I will gladly welcome you to the club of people who just sit around on the forums and never upload. It is way more relaxed! But as far as the other stuff dont even worry about it, if you put yourself out there you will find your people. I mean we are your people but i meant some real life people. Good luck man, we got you either way. xLegendx
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I don't know ‍♀️

JRayge11, Mar 21, 2017

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Phase Well-Known Member Official Author

xLegendx said: ↑

What, my face?
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It looks just like your avatar

Phase, Mar 22, 2017

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xLegendx Active Member Official Author

MayCole1212 said: ↑

It looks just like your avatar
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What do you mean?

xLegendx, Mar 22, 2017

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