Pour Your Heart Out

I just came here to just put it somewhere where people can see it and go from there. I can't forgive him cause he didn't have a reason to hit me and it doesn't make me feel better about it if I try to forgive him. I am not the person that would regret doing that. Rube said some incorrect things. Frankly I don't think I will get the opportunity anyways.

 

oh my gosh are you f-ing serious? Forgiving is the answer, and there are people that have forgiven people that have killed family members, or raped them. A punch? Yeah, no reason to hit you. Hes the winner here because he has permanently hurt you. Different from physical pain.

 

good point

 

How would you forgive someone who on purpose killed your entire family? Maybe you wouldn't forgive them but it would be good if they were sentenced to life in prison

I have heard of an instance where a car accident killed most of a man's family and that is an easy one to forgive because the person who crashed into them was drunk and didn't mean it

 

No i meant car accident, lmao, we are probably thinking of the same story. People who are drunk still cause irreprable harm and are breaking the law. That can't be easy.

Purposeful, people have forgiven.

 

I wouldn't forgive someone who killed my whole family on purpose. They don't deserve that

 

See that’s the problem. Not everything is about fairness. They don’t give a crap when you don’t forgive, the only person that’s harmed is you. I’m not perfect. I’m a hypocrite. I probably wouldn’t be able to either. But not because they don’t deserve it. You will turn this bitter over a punch, just wait till you get put in a toxic work place.

 

I wouldn't forgive the murderer but I would watch and find gratification in their death sentence.

Edit: I think my perception of forgiveness was a bit wrong after looking it up and its fine I guess

 

But back to the topic of a punch, you are 3 years older now. This will harm job opportunities and college opportunities. Life isn’t what it was 20 years ago. That doesn’t fly.

 

That’s sick. A sense of justification is normal. Enjoying someone dying, that’s different. Again, I would too. Still not okay.

 

You got punched 3 years ago and u still mad? Let it go, holding a grudge is only holding u back

 

seems like you only read the first post sheesh

 

Lmao

 

Well another point: I would like to say I’m not shaming or judging you. Do I think you should still hate that kid? No. Would I? Yes. I can’t forgive my own grandmother for some things she’s done while I was living with her in between moving. We live 5 minutes from here and I visit her 10 times less than the rest of my family.

 

damn

 

yeah

 

Just want to say that I'm doing better. School is of to a rocky start this semester, sleep is coming back and exercising is getting there. Need to get myself into healthy habits and neutralize the bad ones. It won't be easy but with commitment and a healthy attitude, I can do it.

 

i asked my dad if i could get a dog and he said no so i am relaly sad because i love dogs and ii want to get a pet dog like a goldren retrever

 

im out of options and dont know what to do. im so tired. i deal with chronic anxiety which lead to overwhelming panic attacks to where i feel im going to die. i dont know what causes them but they spiral out of control. i have no one to talk to. i cut off all of my friends due to their poor choices in life. i dont go outside anymore as im afraid of stepping out into the sun. i conceal all my emotions and problems and dont know who to vent to. the thoughts build and build but my foundation is too weak to carry. i struggle with wanting to live. some nights i just want to end it all but im smart enough not to. the only time im not anxious is a few hours each day. i wake up with my heart pounding and intrusive thoughts immediately take over. im scared and feel like im going to die. i dont know what to do. who to talk to. where to go. how to handle this. i dont feel like i will ever get better. i care too much of what people think of me, even when i know they care too much about themselves to fit the thought of me inside their head. i cant hold a simple conversation with anyone outside of the internet as it takes minutes for me to formulate a single sentence and my face overheats creating smoldering cheeks. my anxious energy builds up to the point where my mind travels a mile a minute and i havent rested in months. i feel so alone. i guess i crave attention and comfort but i know i wont know what to do with it. i forgot how to live life in society. i cant control my own mind. im losing myself day by day. i want to be strong but my mind is the hardest enemy i have ever faced. im crash landing and bracing for impact. can anyone even hear me? does anyone care? i dont know anymore. a cry for help isnt audible anymore. help...