Pour Your Heart Out

Can I ask what's making you feel unwell?

 

I don’t know everything feels so hard again and I’ve got absolutely no reason to feel bad I feel like I’m just lying to myself and I’m stuck here I don’t want to make other peoples lives worse

I wish I was not me I don’t even feel real man I don’t even know myself or who I am I feel so numb and disconnected from myself I don’t think I’ll ever feel good again I feel like I don’t even really know what’s going on most of the time I don’t know how to describe it

I wish I could cry or feel bad but I don’t

i am always so stressed and I just want to do good I want people to think of me and when they think of me I want them to think I do good and I did good but i also want to not want people to think about me

I don’t know how to describe how I feel it’s like when you are holding your breath and you need to breathe in again and you know you just need to inhale and you have full power to do so but I’ve forgotten how and my times almost up

nothing in life feels special anymore and I don’t know what to do about that

Part of me feels like this is my fault because I deserve this

 

I am such a cornball I wish I could just get along and not be like this

 

It seems like there's a lot of confusion in your life right now. I assume you mentioned not wanting to make other peoples' lives worse because you think that you may doing that. Why might the possibility of that happening be in your mind?

Interesting way to describe it, though I'm not sure if I fully understand it. I do understand that there's no black and white ground for wanting validation and staying humble, and it's difficult to comment on where you stand as someone that does not interact with you too often. Perhaps you can ask someone close to you that you trust, and they can give their input on whether or not you're doing things right. But from what little I know of you on this game, I think you're a good guy, and in my book, a good person always tries to be better, which you are doing by being self-aware. Is there something in particular that you're not really sure if it was a good thing or not, or something that has been stressing you out so much? And what do you mean by your time is almost up?