Pour Your Heart Out

I agree with that, staying strong mentally and never giving up and very helpful in remaining strong in the mind and keeping yourself together, it can be very easy to fall apart under the pressure and stress of life, so staying strong helps you so much in remaining happy and positive through any pain. With that said, I hope you're doing alright right now, and hope that things improve for you soon, getting overwhelmed with stress is always awful and really hard to get through, and I know you'll be able to make it through sannin you got this you can make it, if you ever need to talk for a bit, I am always open for a conversation
Know that when things change, support from your friends here shall remain, I know you can make it through, even if it is tough, I wish you the most luck and give you all the support

 

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Don't be on freerider except for 'health breaks' study but don't cram. Freerider doesn't help you figure out your geometry problems (trust me)

 

shut up dante and start drawing freerider tracks to help you with your algebra

 

Wtf is year 4 I'm in america... you mean 10th grade (sophomore)
My sis is in 8th grade and taking pre calc next year (to put this into perspective im taking algebra 2 next year, she's just uber smart)

 

wait dant has me blocked..

 

Been a little scared lately.

I recently received some threats from someone who doesn't live that far away from me telling me he was going to find me and kill me. Although yes I have devised a plan for if he comes, I'm still a bit scared. Not sure what is going to be happening.
On another bad note, I have also been receiving DMs on Discord from people I know in-person and they have been telling me to commit. Not a very fun time, no? I will not be committing because I need to live on with my life. I have reason to live, just like all of you. Be kind. <3

Any questions about what is going on, please create a conversation with me, I will be checking my Inboxes regularly, if needed. (Inbox will be open.)

 

Holy hell, man
are you wanted in your area

 

good luck my friend

 

i don't think so?

 

Thanks, man.

 

I feel a bit silly talking about my personal issues on an online forum, but here goes.

So the last couple months have been kinda crazy for me. Last year, I was dianosed with ADHD and anxiety. I always kind of expected that I had them, but something about the confirmation didn't exactly help. Things have been kind of crazy with my mom too, she recently had sugery on both of her feet, she's been having issues with her tendons, as well as getting bunions removed. Because of this, I haven't been able to get on any ADHD treatment because she couldn't drive and my dad has been really busy with work. The ADHD and anxiety spiked even more in school, which did not help at all. About a month or so ago, I was able to get prescribed for a certain kind of ADHD medication, and then went onto it for a few weeks. Not only did I notice no help with the ADHD, it came with a lot of negative side effects. It totally destroyed my appetite, leading to undereating, heightened my anxiety, and even brought back my depression that was triggered when I moved a couple years ago. Because of this, I decided to go off meds, which helped a bit, but my appetite is still much lower than it was before, and the depression is still lingering. On top of all of this, I've recently developed a crush on my best friend, which really makes my relationship with her weird, because I can't tell if she likes me back, and I don't want to tell her and make our friendship weird. This, unsurprisingly, has not helped my anxiety. I'm trying to schedule another appointment to try and get prescribed for new ADHD meds, which I hope will help more than the previous ones, so hope that goes well .

 

i can relate, had very similar side effects when i started mine… hopefully things go great for you and your family and your friend thinks of you like you do of her (unless you don’t wanna relationship lol)

 

That's really tough. Sorry to hear that the medications are harming so much. With side effects like those, it definitely doesn't sound like it's right for you. It's also a very unfortunate predicament with your friend's relationship. Perhaps a way of finding out can be asking a mutual friend of yours to discretely find out? I don't know if that'll work, but I'll pray for you and your family that you'll be able sort everything out. Hopefully things get back on track for you.

 

Thanks for that .
Although the mutual friends thing wouldn't really work, because honestly neither of us have a lot of friends, and none of them are mutual

 

I have always been diagnosed with severe ADHD and at first, the meds were quite helpful in keeping me on focus, but I never realized a big change until 2 years ago. Sometimes I forget to take my medicine, which is at the maximum perscription, and when I go to school I see the biggest change in my behavior. It makes other people at school think I am weird, and they decide to bully me for my differences. they make vocal stiming sounds at me and call me names, aimlessly calling me names like a retard, which is not true at all. I happen to be in higher classes than them, but it never effected me much until now. It affected my appetite as well, but I got over it and now I eat the most food at my school, and trust me when I say that I eat a LOT. your words have helped me notice that this medicine has been giving me on and off depression, so, yesterday I decided to to change my medication to see if the problem was the perscription I had, or if it was all medicine that made me suffer from depression. My mother has also been playing a big part in the stress and depression I am experiencing. She took my school chromebook and emailed my teachers saying that I would have to do all my work on paper from now on, she thinks that I have an addictiontoplaying games on it, which I havent done in 3 months. It is very humiliating to go to a class and do work on paper, being specificaly handed by the teacher, so now I go to the tech guy to get a spare chromebook for the school day. she always makes me do work around the house, and she is trying to get me to cancel both of my 2 jobs. when ever I buildthe confidence to do something challenging, or go into an AP class, she always mentaly breaks me down and is very un-supportive, saying that I can't do it. I am sick of the way she treats me and the rest of my family. My mother has alsocaused my father much stress and depression. he works from home and has been going through jobs like rolls of toilet paper. when COVID-19 hit, he lost his job and we have not Finacialy recovered from it. he lost a job he really loved, and has no friends anymore, just like me. my sister Hates her as well, my mother always calls her ugly and stupid. I hear my sister crying in her room almost every night. this may seem like my family is mentally unstable, and quite frankly, I would agree with you. I have tryed to talk to my parents about my problems, because my mother doesn't even realize the pain she puts us through, but I am not good at expressing my feelings verbally, I would be lost in a scentence not knowing what to say. I am in so much preasure right now and I am Trying to turn my Life around, but I don't know what to do. My on and off depression is turning into a full time, severe depression, almost impossible to escape.

 

Wow, I have never shown my true feelings this well.

 

Man I'm really sorry about that. I couldn't understand what it would be like for a parent to not only to not support you, but actively critisize you. To be completely honest though, my parents aren't really helping me much either. I can tell they care, but similar to what you said I'm also not good about talking about how I feel verbally, and they don't really understand what it's like, and therefore can't help much. I'm also the only one in my family that I know of that has any of these disorders, so no help there. I really hope you figure out how to try and figure out the problems going on with your family and school, truly I do. I won't say I understand what you're going through, because everybody is different, and can't understand what other people go through mentally, but try to stay strong. I'm not sure if this is possible for you, but recently I've been a bit more comfortable talking/voicing how I feel about my disorders/conditions, because I've met a really good friend, the one I mentioned in my previous post actually, and we both happen to have similar conditions, but talking and joking around with her about them has helped me feel, better about it and makes it a bit easier to talk about my feelings. The best of luck to you and your family, and I hope you're able to figure everything out

 

I do have both ADHD and anxiety too, but my family isn't doing that great in the economics part of our lives, in other words, we are in poverty; thus we can't get any meds for my ADHD. I have also been diagnosed with ADD, which isn't doing anything to help with ADHD or anxiety, if anything it's making it worse. It isn't that good that the depression also came back, as depression is quite the killer of anything fun. As for the best friend situation, I can sorta feel for you but not fully, as everyone is different. I will be praying for you and your family to get through this.
Also, sorry for any drama between us over the past 2-3 years, haven't been myself over the course of this time. Middle school has been getting to my mental health. If you would like to talk further about this topic, I am willing to go into a conversation if you would like.

 

Thanks man, your words mean a lot to me, good luck to you as well.