Pour Your Heart Out

Wow. Just, wow.
I'm sorry you feel like this. This is something that's really hard to chow down and yes; it's true that the mind is the hardest thing to overcome. Trust me it's not just anxiety. It can even be a bad habit. This won't take one day to get over but with the proper help and support, you can get through it. Locking your emotions is the wrong thing to do. When I went through grief, I done that, after 3 1/2 months, I broke down. It's not good to keep it in there because once that basin is full and there's no place to go, it's going to overflow and explode. You have to empty the basin in a healthy way. Either by talking to a friend, parent or an anonymous help line. I never felt like this before so I won't be great help. Though I'll say what I think is best.

If you can talk to someone anonymously, go for it (as I said above). There are some help lines out there for people that need someone to talk to. If you don't want to go that route, talk to one of your parents you trust. They'll most likely understand and help you if possible. I know you are afraid of going outside but, try looking outside or even step outside entirely for a short interval. I'd suggest going to somewhere peaceful like a park or somewhere that has little to no noise. If this isn't possible, if you like classical music, a few pieces are good to listen to. Jazz is also good but it has to be relaxing. You can also try to calm down. Do you know what triggered this? You can try removing the stress trigger from your proximity and unwind that way. More importantly, gain a trustworthy friend. Man shall not live alone. Though one must have a friend through the hardships of life. You don't know how far one good friend goes.

I'm not sure if this will work for you. My thoughts go to you. There's always hope my friend. There's hope for every man. You may not see it but when you can't find love, when you can't find faith; There's always hope. There'll always be someone to lend you a hand.

 

I’m extremely sorry. I know a lot of how you feel. I care about your well being, I hear what you say, and I will try my best to help you in any way I can. I don’t know if this will be any comfort, and I hope it is, but know for me it is probably not a lot. I don’t know you, you don’t know me, and there is really no way for me to be any help to you physically irl. However, hopefully it can be some comfort knowing I care about what happens to you. Fvck standards from society, it doesn’t matter if you fit in, and it doesn’t matter how people think about you. I spend far too much time worrying about that, and while you really can’t control how you feel, start trying to break the habit. Get out of the rhythm you are stuck in. Start with trying to give a single compliment to someone each day. It’s not hard, and maybe it can help both of you. Talking to people is intimidating and not something that you will get overnight. I know this. I have trouble being socially acceptable and no matter how I talk, laugh, or even how I walk I get laughed at and stomped down. Don’t let other people do that to you. Ignore them. Again, this is easier said then done, I know this. But the small things matter, and start with something simple to try to help you. Try to listen to music that calms you, or that makes you happy. Try to find a hobby (ie drawing, making models, running, etc.)

I don’t know if you meant all that rhetorically, and just needed to say that, but hopefully this can at least give you some peace.

 

L + ratio

 

I don't know what's going on here, but I feel amazing today. I might crash tmrw lmao

 

Or when someone else ruins it

 

Not important to the thread whatsoever. Please refrain from clogging threads with useless replies

 

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"Clogging" ?
"Useless" ?
"Not important" ?
I did exactly what the rest of the thread is doing, except it ended in a tragic way.\
Hmmm........ Can't take a joke?
IDK what rules I've broken, but IDK if your anyone to tell me what to do.
I'm not trying to sound rude but.....

 

I agree with wayward. Even this post defending your joke was useless.

 

ARGUMENT THREAD>

 

Like the post instead of responding with these useless messages. I literally just asked you not to do this and what is the first thing you do? It's better to just like the post or, if you have a grudge against me, don't do anything at all.

No you didn't. The rest of the thread is doing what the thread is intended for which is to vent about the highs and lows of their life. It's not a thread to post random pictures of blood splatter that take up way too much room on the thread.

The rule you broke is in the terms of service that in other threads, you hounded be fallowed which states, "posts are to be made in the relevant forum." It has also been asked numerous times in the thread to not make irrelevant replies and in general, it's a common courtesy asked of players.

This thread is very important to me. I've contributed a lot to it and I intend to keep it a place where people can come to ask for help. Also, I'm not forcing you to do anything, merely asking you to refrain from doing it again. There is a difference.

That is not something for the argument thread.

 

its not about breaking the rules or anything you just arent that funny

 

(No I am not depressed. I'm just getting things out)
The way social media progresses, now has seen a small effect on my cognitive abilities. What I mean is the way I focus and think about things have been greatly impacted and I hate it.

The amount of time I spend on a electronic device is horrendous; and the amount of time spent on doing anything else but be on the device is near zero. The way I think, focus and act feels super lazy and I seem to notice this 2 years into the pandemic and 1 year after my father passed. It's effecting my grades, intelligence, and judgement, it's making me very lazy causing me to feel like I'm wasting myself. Skills that I once had, are fading away while I try to grasp and retrain myself. The bad habits I have accumulated, the inappropriate ones (these are gone from me) to the smallest ones. The ones that were so great of a risk, I overcame them but the smaller ones are the hardest to get rid of. Social media is the biggest, hardest, final boss. Bad habits are hard to change. My dad said that to me in 2019. From grade 8, I realized the habit I had and nearly 4 years later I haven't fully overcome it. The way technology is being incorporated into schools is just making it harder to break the habit. I did go on long breaks but I always come crawling back. It's effecting school, my mental and physical health. I need a revelation. I need a breakthrough. I need, peace from all the bad habits that has been following me for years. For I know how hard this struggle is and I'm done. It's time for a change.

 

my king
apes together strong

 

lmao yeah because this isn't a joke thread bahahaha and the only rules you've broken are social ones, like at least post something a little worth seeing

Wayward is completely in his right to alert you of this fact and ask you not to be dumb. he has seniority, superiority, and is generally someone you should listen to.


and yeah you do sound like a rude brat so please, be quiet for one goddam second

 

this thread is called pour your heart out. if your heart pours out, as far as i know, that is not good for the human body. so preventing your heart from pouring out by clogging it seems like an entirely fair and reasonable solution.

 

Definition of pour your heart out. : to speak very freely to someone about your private and most deeply felt emotions. He'll pour his heart out to anyone who will listen.

Literal Defintion of pour your heart out. : to get rid of your heart from your body by pouring it (the action of emptying a liquid), therefore dying and ceasing to live, which is perfectly acceptable if you are willing to do so.

 

My heart is not a liquid. :|

 

mm k
I see you care very much about this thread, I am sorry and did not know this meant that much.
I was simply trying to make a joke but I guess this is the wrong place to do so.
I have learned a lesson, and will not use this thread again. (For things like this)