Pour Your Heart Out

I can't even post here if I tried because my own mind wouldn't let me. If I open up about anything about my last 5 years of fuck1ng h3ll, I'm scared I'll get judged or worse. When I'm on here, I usually try to put out a persona that has nothing wrong trying to hide who I really am and if I'm having an abnormally bad day sometimes I let it wear off and I say something I didn't mean to and almost expose myself and it's too late to revert it most of the time. If i try and be myself something bad always happens and everyone hates me and I'm not letting that happen here. I hope I'll be able to open up more but I'm afraid for now. I'm sorry for wasting your time reading this.

 

Hey man if you’re too scared to talk about your problems to the thread, send a pm to someone privately. There are plenty of people: Madara, TPlacella, a_drain and myself Wayward to name a few who would gladly listen judgment free if you asked. I’m sure even people like Volund or dantexpress would be down to listen if you reached out. But regardless, remember this thread’s entire purpose is for people to talk about what’s going through their head. Everyone here knows that people have their own world of problems and challenges, and we all understand what that entails.

also, I get feeling like a burden, because for the longest time I felt like I was one too. But honestly you’re not. You’re nowhere close to being a burden, so don’t feel like you need to apologize for reaching out

 

This is a safe thread where people are supposed to respect you, no matter what you're going through. You could say you murdered someone last night for no good reason and the community should respond respectfully, calmly, and logically with their opinions. If you're still uncomfortable with talking on this thread, you can try and find someone to converse with in a private message. I'm definitely available, and I'll try my best to remain respectful to you.

 

I know that people have already responded to this post, but we're here to help. There are plenty of people who are willing to talk with you, myself included.

 

None of the active people in this forum will judge you at all. We are always here to help you not judge you or put you to the ground.

 

I’m out of my edgy phase guys

reminder to everyone that talking about your problems is fine, but it’s not something to romanticize or boast about

Y’all are awesome. Keep on keeping on

 

Volund what's up

 

Keep your head down.
Don't make yourself standout, you won't get hurt that way.
Don't say anything that gets the attention on you.
Stay with the crowd, as long as you are not noticed, you are safe.
Suck it up, hold in the pain, keep it secret.
Please don't make a scene that could make you someone on the radar.
What ever you say will be taken against you.
Everything you want to say to them will never make it out.
Make yourself as forgettable as possible.
Let them use you, as long as you stay unoticed by most.
Solitude is best, you cannot be found that way.
No delaying the inevitable.
Let yourself fade away into oblivion.
Hold everything in until it leaks out.
Anything is better than that...
I’m sorry everyone. Please let me start fresh.

 

bro my eyes are hurting from all these words

 

Definitely not a healthy way to deal with pain. Holding everything in is like holding in your urge to use the restroom. Is it more optimal to hold your pee in until you can't, or just bother the teacher for three seconds with a question? One of these options is a lot less messier than the other, I can assure you.

 

k

 

you know what's crazy im not even out of high school yet and i think i am genuinely out of touch with todays youth dude like if i have to hear another 10 year old for the billionth time skibidi toilet banban flavored grimace shake in ohio with sigma male maximum gigachad big chungus doing the goofy ahh griddy like shut up your bedtime is 7:30pm and you spend all day on a samsung tablet watching youtube videos and you have trash grades and no hobbies or attention span like i am genuinely worried in like 10-20 years time when these people have to run the world and they have no skills in life because they spent their whole day looking nathaniel b pizza tower skibidi toilet chungus among us and the economy crashes all because of Memes. like genuinely the internet needs to be taken away from all these porn addicted tweens before these children are unable to be integrated into society due to their inability to regulate their impulses, i think the internet has had a net negative on society and unless governments are able to regulate its usage society will collapse. sorry for all this hostility to tweens im sure there are some actually interesting ones out there but like the majorities of them nowadays are ******* obnoxious, even moreso than when i was one myself. like all they talk about is mr beast lightskin stare and n word and expect people to find it funny, well i dont because actually a mildly interesting person (in my humple opinion you cant feel free to disagree) and no just because i think the internet is having a bad impact on todays youth doesnt mean i support tate or sneako any of those redpill chuds like im not a fucjing nazi lmao

 

Me when im an ohio chungus gyatt and my parents dont turn on kai cenat or ishowspeed

 

I agree to an extent but maybe not that aggressively.

 

its tough in ohio man

 

I thought Ohio meme would last forever but now it's the cringiest of them all. I only respect true Ohio dwellers.

 

tfw you're a true ohio dweller

 

real

 

What's it seems weird and scary to me. It'll happen to you too.

 

hey man i'm sorry i didn't answer this sooner. been busy and didn't see this. I just don't think it's a good idea. from the few interactions we've had, she's very very mad still, and just wants me to leave her alone. and i think that's the best chance i have of ever repairing the relationship. let it be and let her process it in her own way, however long it takes. i'm trying to move on, but i keep on dwelling on it and idk why. i just cant get her off my mind. i mean i knew her very well. We were only friends for about 6 months but this was the closest relationship i have ever had with someone in my life. closer than even my parents. idk tho, it just doesn't feel like it'll fix anything if i keep trying to reach out. thank you so much for the suggestion though