Pour Your Heart Out

My sister is the worst. She's always bugging me. During school, not during school. I can be literally taking a test and she'll be sitting there, staring at me and mouthing the words to a song, just waiting for me to get angry. When I'm not doing school, she follows me around everywhere. She would literally rather walk in circles around a building, following me, than do almost anything else. And when I retaliate, I get in trouble and she gets a pat on the back or something. I poked her accidentally with some tongs the other day, and she hit my nose with a bowl so hard that there is still a red mark. What did my mom say? "Be careful." You think that that was an accident? That, due to a lack of caution, she attacked me with a bowl? Or yesterday, she got a bad grade on something for school. She was so upset, that when she looked over and saw me glance at her, she picked up a pocket microscope and threw it at my face. I ducked, and it hit the top of my head. But seriously? BRUH! She's pulled a literal pocket knife out on me on one occasion, and my brother had to tackle her from behind and wrestle away the knife. When I mentioned it at dinner, my mom said, "We need to talk about that." But they didn't. Or for school. My sister has had worse grades than I in almost every subject her entire life. That's not the problem though. The problem is that she's not expected to do as well as I am. Even in easier subjects, or with less work, you know that if she gets a 95, my dad will be congratulating her. If I get a 95, my dad will ask what's wrong. My sister disobeys commands from my parents to their faces, and they just repeat the order until she obeys. She's disrespectful to her coaches, and then when point it out, she shrugs and waves it off. The problem is that she literally doesn't care. Back to the disrespect problem. I've told my parents several times. They ask her if it's true. She says no. End of conversation. What? Is my opinion not valid? The coaches are too busy to go to the parents and complain, I doubt they even really care. But my parents don't investigate. They take my sister's word for it. And what if it comes out from a "more reputable" source that she is disrespectful? Something along the lines of "bad (insert name) Don't do that." and nothing else. She rages all the time, her anger is out of control, she has no self-motivation, she will make a point of bemoaning her lack of initiative while procrastinating math just to show us that she can get away with not doing school because she's complaining about how hard it is for her. She doesn't target my brother that much because he will fight back, she's afraid of consequences from him but not my parents, so now all the attention is focused on me. My parents' expectations for me are to excel. My parents' expectations for my sister are to stay above the surface.

 

bro send her to boarding school or something geez

 

I sincerely feel sorry, but I have one question;
Older or younger?

 

younger. It would bug me a lot more if she were older though, so I guess that's a plus.

 

Younger sibling troubles eh?? Been there. I'd say you should tell your sister how she's behaving and how it's effecting you. She won't know until you say something. If she doesn't listen, ignore her and tell your parents.

 

I don't know what to say, I've never been in that situation, but I hope the best for you.
-Best regards,
Kyeler.

 

Oh tell me abt it. My sister is the definition of spoiled. She never has any consequences for anything. She goes around making my life hell and she never gets in trouble for anything she does. Even if I lock my room she finds a way to go in there and ruin everything I have. My canvases I paint on shell get paint and waste it all on their, and it takes a while to sand it off, not to mention the fact that it wasted a ton of paint. She goes around talking rude, acting rude, and my parents think she’s so good. I have a similar story to hers. My previously mentioned sister and my littlest sister share a room. Older sister gets mad at little sister that she’s not helping clean (remember, she is 5 and was helping somewhat) and locks her room and literally would kick little sister if she didn’t help and would yell at her. Yeah. This is the freak show I deal with. My parents said “oh we’re going to have a talk and she’ll get in biiig trouble”. Guess who didn’t get a talk, wasn’t punished, and never learned her lessons

 

She definitely knows about it. It's how she gets her entertainment while she's doing school. Just watching me, waiting for me to react. Like I said, the problem is she literally doesn't care. Why should she? Nothing will happen..

 

Attention. If your parents don't know what's going on, this will continue until you become extremely provoked

 

i hate that people

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sexually

moan and always say

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daddy

or any kind of

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sexual

act, it makes me mad and I just wanna scream at them

 

they know what's going on. My dad think's it's us just ganging up on our sister accusing her of terrible behavior. My mom sees it, but really just expects us to be big boys and deal with it.

 

Everything you just said almost made me call this number.
800-273-8255
You will see what I mean if you look the number up.

 

you must need to tell to everyone that you play it,theres a smal number of peoples playing it,so,youre the 1%
(btw who are those peoples that also play this game in your class?)

 

fun fact: all of them are kids, don't know why but I just wanna punch em

 

and please dont commit die, your a cool person, do some coding and make a good game and that might make you happy.

 

oh and:

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already coding

 

thankyou for overcomplicating my joke

 

Idk if I ever wrote anything about this in here but anyway... I feel like I unnecessarily made myself traumatized over a workplace experience in fast food. I'm just very sensitive but I really feel like I was mistreated. I get like mental flashbacks to my time working at this place and it makes me feel quite low. Obviously people have much worse experiences but I don't think this one was good. I was accused of lying multiple times by my bosses. I was yelled at at 5am being threatened to be fired and accused of going about my job as if it were a "charade" or something. I was once locked inside the area where the dumpsters are to clean the floor because I was in pain and I felt like I couldn't do my normal job since it involves lifting quite a bit. I was given a very heavy bucket of soapy water so it was a struggle to move that around. I was out there for about two hours. I was also made I think on the same day to clean and scrape the floor of the freezer. It was freezing in there. I was scraping the floor for hours and I was told my job was "okay" or something like that. I was constantly told I wasn't fast enough even though I had to make sure about 1.5k pieces of chicken a day were able to be cooked. I would work up to 11-hour shifts and it was difficult to get breaks, and at one point I was on a medication that increased my appetite and I never felt so hungry in my life and I couldn't eat for like 8 hours. I had hurt my dominant right shoulder quite badly by landing on it awkwardly. but I was threatened to be written up for not finding a replacement for my shift. I ended up working with an injured shoulder and working through pain and at one point I yelled out in pain as it felt excruciating at one point and was doing most things with my left arm. One time the garbage bag was heavier than normal because there was leftover unwrapped chicken I had thrown out that I forgot about. I was refused help with the bag. I had never lifted something that heavy in my life and I'm not exactly that weak. I had to carry it quite far and then throw it into a dumpster and I seriously injured myself last November. I still deal with pain from it coming up on five months later. I came back to work two weeks after the injury and I was told by a doctor to not lift anything more than 10 pounds but I was refused help lifting something around 30/40 pounds. I hurt myself (perhaps obviously) and I let my supervisor know and he let me leave. But my boss called me on my phone after I left and angrily made me come back and fill out an incident report while I was visibly stressed and my boss was aware I have bipolar disorder the whole time I was working there. They couldn't care less about an incident report the first time I was hurt. I was recorded retelling what had happened and I was on tape crying from built-up "trauma." I tried to confront the "development director" aka "got the job cause he's the owner's son guy" about how he refused to help me which resulted in me getting hurt and he told me he would never lift something for me. I returned with my father because of how afraid I was with hospital papers and my boss examined the papers and told me I wouldn't be able to work for a while because I would be a "liability" you know, not an injured human being or anything. I was never asked how I was or apologized to. My boss acted completely fake because my dad was there (he's not the kind of guy you want to mess with). I was working full-time hours when I was hurt and I never received wages during my time out with injury. This experience still weighs on me to this day so yeah.. I still haven't officially quit because their terrible insurance has to take care of my medical stuff. I can't bear to see that place again. I literally look away from it when I pass the place. My dad thinks I might need a lawyer for wages. Whenever I see someone who resembles the boss or his son I get afraid and keep making sure it's not them. So... yeah

tl;dr I had a bad work experience and I made myself traumatized over it.

 

Ok I really need to say this.

I always feel like I'm not improving. My ghosting isn't good, after more than 1 year of grinding points and ghosting trials and that s**t, and I suck at detailing. When I observe featured tracks from people like G-raffe or CityShep or RadiumRC but when I try it's just one big blunder. Especially because my main account is locked, I can't really get as much feedback bc I got 59 subs on my main but only 2 on my alt account (JustAGDFan2). The fact that I can't get good at ghosting to at least the skill level of Egway (I'm trying to beat his ghosts) or the detailing skills at a miminum requirement to those of G-raffe and Chaos-Fallen. If they were able to get featured ghosts/tracks, how can't I? I've tried so hard, and yet it seems that most of my
efforts were for naught. See what I mean below:

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