Pour Your Heart Out

I can never express my true feelings around people and I always act self centered even though I don’t want to. People in my life need me and I find it difficult to help them because i mainly only worry about myself.

 

I feel like I have a personality disorder. Like when someone tells me something really sad I kinda dont really feel an emotion towards their issue. Or when the news talks about shootings and stuff like that I dont really say anything about it, or feel anything about it. I dont know what this is issue? is called but I feel like it could affect the way I am towards my friends and family.

 

if you can't bang her daughter, go for the mother

 

i want to express what im going through but never know what I am feeling

 

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I'm biologically male; it's called a demigirl and i'm omnisexual

 

Bro not the time or the place. I get it’s a funny joke for people in middle school but my man just lost the girl he thought he was spending the rest of his life with. Show a little respect and understand that he’s going through some stuff right now.

Putting it in words is always the best bet on understanding and comprehending what is going on in your life. Whether that be in a journal or through a therapist or on a 2d bike game. No rush on opening up but if you want to understand how to feel about your situation in life, that’d be the best option.

I know what you’re talking about, and it sounds like you have a mild case of Alexithymia which is a disorder that prohibits a person from feeling common emotions like fear or sadness (unless you can’t feel compassion or love towards your family in which case I’d think you do have a full disorder). I think the reason why you don’t feel anything towards a sad situation is because you don’t have any personal connection to that issue. I don’t believe this will effect your relationships (again unless you physically can’t feel emotion for them) because you actually have a tie to them. You care and love them so the impact of having that damaged or taken away is greatly increased.

 

yo shoutout to Wayward for actually giving good, well thought out responses frequently just to try and help people

 

Wow. That's tough dude. And you're right. If she did care a lot for you, she'd still take the time or even make time no matter how small it is. Glad you're doing better on other things dude!
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As for me? Nothing much happened. Starting to push sleep out more from 6 1/2-7 hours to now 8-9, 10+ hours. Going to bed earlier is a struggle but I'm started to do so. Exercise and eating right again is really helping too. Didn't get back on the exercise just yet but I'm starting slowly. It's a struggle to regain the habit but it's doing better on my body. As my dad always said, bad habits are hard to change. And he was right about that. I have a lot of bad habits/cycles I want to end and move from. Anyways, I'm not as tired as a use too plus, I think better in school. Continuing to get back on top of work and looking for the break. Therefore, I can get a lot back in line. Sadly, it may be hard because it's coming 1 year since my dad passed on December 31st. So, I don't know. I'll be ok!

 

FR

 

Also just to comment on this, even though it’s very sad and unfortunate, it’s always better to lose someone who is just going that continually disappoint you then waste your time trying to understand their manipulation good on you for doing what’s right

 

thanks

 

Thats fine. I dont know how that feels like but i hope that you can find people that support you as yourself, not what they want you to be. May reality be kind to you, SadHug.

 

same i just can't show my emotions in irl. its just hard for me to show or tell them.

i still love ya!!!

 

Ok i know i don't really post on here about myself but it's just been kinda hard for me and trying to avoid talking, so anyways here i go

Ya might seen my post on how its hard for me to show and tell my emotions and its just been hard for methe copule of days for me to actual coporate with others because of it like for example yesturyday Yesturday: I never swept the garage because there were not leave or what not in it but when my mom came home there were leaves but then she got mad at me for not sweeping then I was just over it cause she always gets mad at me for not doing something so samll so i kinda talked back to her. Then she just punched me in the face, pushed me around and scratched/periced my arm open with her nails which honestly hurts a lot and would not stop bleeding. then 30 mins later she went up stairs and started causing a problem again and kept on asking me what MY problem is which really got me pissed, and knowing me since I dont like talking about my problems and feelings and what not i could not really find myself to respond. she started threatening me about if i dont tell her then i will regreat it and bla bla bla bla blaaa. then she kepy on threatening and i kinda um broke down a little cause i was just over this all and i told her i was sick of everything thats going on in my life and her, then she started acting like someone sorry little @hole and started giving me some kinda mommy boys love (im not a mama's boy by the way) which i hate a lot which made me breck down even more. Im just sick of everything i really dont know what to do even if i do something the right way like come home with good grades and what not i still get yelled at for everything.
PS. she my step mom, ive had her even sincei was three, don't know how i still don't have some what of a relationship with her, i dont really have a good relationship with anyone :\
Please someone just help me adn give advice, i get if you don't want to help me at all im really understand.​

 

Well I mean ts more towards friends and family?? I think?? Like if my abuela died right now, I wouldnt really feel bad? or tbh anything

 

well same but i never really experienced someone i really knew well die................the only person i knew (they never knew me) was probly stan lee :|

 

The death of stan lee didn't bother me (even though he was a wonderful man and will forever be remembered as a hero to all)

 

i never bothered me it more like.........stunned me i geuss?? idk really know, the old pop's was really old though

 

Moral of the story: do your jobs