Pour Your Heart Out

1. Sorry about your friend.
2. He is on house arrest not in prison.
3. If you can, just tell your parents straight out that he isn't a bad guy.

 

Lmao everyone is saying deep stuff and my dumbass is just think of the word “Cheebuberb”

 

i noticed some improvements.
now after making my daily mistakes over and over again, now i see them clearly, they used to be blurry and i wasn't sure what was wrong. now its obvious, slowly i need to eliminate them and switch my bad habits with good ones. stopped feeling as helpless as i did, because now nothing is blurry. the wrong is wrong and the good is good. i know what im supposed to do. the hard part is here, the "doing" time starts now. as hard as it may look, its time and it must be done. i either work on myself or i end up very, very bad. life aint going to wait for me to get in the mood to start working on myself. i need to catch up and do everything correctly. nothing is hard to do, but the devil always whispers in my ears to sit in my chair and do nothing useful. i need to have stronger faith in God and in life to gain strength. my life will never be the same again. its time.

 

Time fo what

 

this

 

I always feel like I'm my mom's number two and that my older sister is always the golden child. She can get away with a lot more things than me, she receives more praise and I'm, well I'm left in the dirt. Some of the stuff that my mom does is this excerpt from a convo that I had with someone:
I get too much from my mom. What she wants me to do is mold me into her own icon and completely shuts out the the part of who I want to be. She doesn't want me to become a railroad engineer bc I will be a lot more busy. She wants me to become a teacher so I will be more available, while doing that, she's also trying to force me to learn how to fix stuff up. I see a correlation between the two. If I'm more available than she will have me so she can use me to fix her stuff

 

If she's training you to become more capable in life, so that you will be more ready to tackle the real world when you aren't living under her roof anymore, that's a good thing, because you'll find yourself more able to do things, since you've learned those extra skills during childhood. She shouldn't be trying to force down your interests, instead, be more flexible with what YOU want to be. Parents should support you with whatever you want to do, unless, of course, if you want to be a robber or something when you grow up, then the parents should intervene and change your mindset. I think in time, your mother would understand that you want to become a railroad expert, and realize that she can't force you to do what she wants; you should decide what you want to be, as long as it's reasonable. I think it'll happen eventually at some point. If she doesn't realize that and keeps making decisions for you, you can tell her. If your sister is older than you, the reason your mother is paying more attention to her could be because they have more stress on them in school. An older sibling will have more demanding work to do in school, and since you're younger, you are supposed to have more time to kill, so generally, your parents would call on you to do extra work like taking out the trash even though your sister hasn't done it for a while.

 

when i was 5 my parents got into a fight and my dad went to jail and i was put in care with my 2 brothers on of them was only 3 the other one was 7 and since then i have been in care and now my dad is back in jail and i am getting adopted and my mother died from a drug overdose i have a younger sister and she is adopted like me and my 2 brothers i am now 13 and i am still in care

 

Still think about the same word but I changed the spelling to “Cheebuburb”

 

lo l

 

True but it's not that I'm getting extra chores. My sister would receive a lot more praise if she would ring a good grade but if I would bring the exact same grade on the exact same assignment it would just be a good job in a very monotone voice. My sister can get away with bullying me but if I tease her I'm yelled at. My mom has trying to convince me for a while now to be a teacher and she is rather manipulative. If I do tell her how I feel she would lash back harder. I could literally say "hey, I don't like it when you do this" in a calm voice and she would yell at me

 

Well that's a little more serious. That doesn't sound fair at all; parents should not be manipulating their children to do anything. I'm not exactly confident that I'll give some good advice, so I'll let others voice their opinions, because if she's getting angry at you and obviously favoring your sister over you, that's a little messed up, and I'm not sure what to advise, since I've never been in that situation. And if I were in that situation, I'd probably just sit there and take it head on, which might not be the best choice lol. Sorry man, but all I can say is just wait it out, since she's not going to accept that your feelings matter.

 

Thanks man

 

DiamondMaster2.0 Just wait for a big dude named Hagrid to knock down your door (this is a metaphor for people too stupid to comprehend that).

 

Lol true. Do try and keep this thread more on the serious side though, this is a thread for everyone to discuss serious topics. Thanks

 

What I mean is for him to wait for the opportunity for what he is good at to happen, I tried to give an accurate example

 

I see, my mistake.

 

Lol. I think I can endure this for another 4 years. I got some people that are really supportive of me like my dad and a friend who works for the railroad that I want to work for

 

It's good that you have your dad supporting you. You could try to get him to convince your mom to be a bit less harsh on you

 

Thing is that my mom really believes on what she's doing is right. She had a tough life in Poland with both of her parents being rather abusive. They don't believe on what they did to her was wrong so I guess she gets that from her parents.