Feeling Sad :(

I've been feeling terrible about myself lately
Thinking the truth, and it hurts.
I've realised that, especially due to all my efforts to be nice, almost every single pro player or big player in the community doesn't like me.
I am not respected by the community in the slightest.
I have nothing to my name, besides a ton of points, if that.
^ not trying to flex the points, I really dont want anyone to get confused, so I will just say it now.
I've been horribly depressed the last month, due to numerous reasons. That is a reason why I posted about my 4th place in the world cup 4 in the world cup 5 forum. Though, Cerulean(sharkfin) thought that was rightfully annoying, and most likely other thought that as well, and I truly apologize for that again. I really didn't mean any type of flexing in any way with that, I even accept the fact that I got lucky with the placements, and that I didn't truly deserve to win.
And about my ghosting in general, I really dont like talking about that. No matter what I say, people will criticize me on every little thing, and never be happy, so I don't even want to dip into the spacebar topic again.
But what has really brought back my bad feelings is this: the reminder of how minimal I really am to this community, how expendable I am, and how disliked I am i came back, and I wanted to get away from the bad relationships, but I just came right back to them on this game. I've had several breakups over the past 8 months, with everyone leaving first, most likely due to me not being "good enough", and it just stings when I come back, and people still don't like me.

I've been feeling really down, and with nowhere to go, and with nothing else to do
You can call me a drama queen, or an emo, or depressed, I don't care, I just wanted to voice this right now.

 

im not good but i respect u

 

I respect you no matter what and if you need someone to talk to just start a conversation with me and we can talk if you want to.
Sorry that your feeling sad.

 

I know what it's like to be hated in the community. your best bet is just to ignore what they say and if you are apparently doing something wrong try to change that.

 

u mean when people thought u tased?

 

no, just all around, because I was being stupid like a year ago and already made a bad reputation for myself and it just went downhill from there

 

ShamatoZ I respect you sooooooo much when I just started the game I looked up to you because you where always at the top of every leader board that I played and you are an amazing track maker. About Sharkfin he has been mean to a lot of creators to name one Symantec he dissed his profile pic so don't let the d.ick tell you it was luck. your an amazing ghoster and creator.

 

1. we are pretty good friends so he knew I wasn't trying to be mean
2. it was literally a pfp of a dude dabbing

 

I never said that, I just said they probably shouldn't brag

 

Sharkfin he was excited let him be excited. you brag that you got ghoster medals on your @cerulean account so dont talk about bragging

 

i thought shamatoz was a girl

 

I didnt brag about getting ghosting medals

 

oh ur talking about syman

 

Sharkfin sorry for fighting can we make up. Just been going through some things.

 

I_like_food88

 

Trxsh that what I'm saying.

 

Plenty of people have ghosts as their description, how is this different?

 

I meant u werent flexing anything too bad

 

but i did brag about ghosting a lot a few months ago and i got completely crapped on. so ii dont want that to happen to others, this thread isnt about what i have done wrong, its about trying to help another rider out

 

and those arent ghosts, their the fact that u have feats, which is a tiny bit of a flex