Pour Your Heart Out

are you addicted now? sry for asking but sometimes ya don't realise till after when ya realise ya can't stop
e: addicted to computer 0_o

 

md is right? bruv drink alcohol and can't remember what i listened to 10 seconds ago

 

I don’t use the computer that much outside of playing subnautica atm

 

it's an advanced homework computer

 

Yes

 

we_are_number_one Why are you in debt? Shouldn't your parents pay for stuff for you until you get a stable job?

 

hhhhh

 

Thought about this thread while listening to the song Migraine by Twenty One Pilots. Take a listen, hope it helps. Lots of good stuff from TOP if you need relatable, depressing music. (mostly older songs) Not to become more depressed, but sometimes I need music like this when I'm feeling down and maybe you feel the same.

 

[redacted cuz further further cringe]

 

Funny how you guys have the same music interests as me
I am christian, I'm 100% sure that God exists. That makes me happy, because I know that he protects me.
I'm so thankful that I'm growing up in a christian family. And I hope that everyone else will get the same chance to meet God.

 

Just any song by puppet helps me (especially the ones in Give Up The Dream EP). Also songs like Let's Talk by Rogue and Frame of Mind by Tristam and Barken really help me too. Life is shlt, the world is fuc ked up.

 

I can't believe yall don't listen to Tay-K

 

Is that lil tay?

 

i cant belive yall dont listen to kalmah

 

nno

 

Let's try and stay on topic guys. It's getting a little too many music references.

 

Throughout 5th grade, I really felt like I was nothing. I wanted to commit suicide because I felt like if I did, no one would care. I felt like most of my family have only focused on my flaws, not my strengths. Now, I'm questioning if I'm useful for anything. If I go, will it just be like someone accidentally stepping on an ant? Someone catching a mouse in a mouse trap? I'm usually good at drowning out these thoughts but now they're coming out in mass. Too much for me to handle. If I go, it will be just a useless human being going. No one will care, right?

 

5th grade? how old are u? wait until u are an adult. problems also grow up..learn to handle it. if u cant look for professional help

 

I'm in 9th grade now. The same thoughts that I had in 5th grade are flooding back

 

might sound a bit harsh, but it is true

then again, problems in your mind are different than physical ones. Physical life problems grow up with you, but that doesn't mean mental ones will. Just keep fighting them and think of more important things, like appreciating little things.

I remember for about freshman year of high school I went to school happy every day. I don't know why, but I could actually walk around campus smiling between classes. That was the same year I had never felt more alone. 90% of my middle school went to a different high school because I live on the edge of 2 districts and my parents picked the school outside of my old school's district. That included my best friends. All of us were literally scattered to different schools. Stopped talking to them and haven't in years. . . But I felt good. Not because of any of the bad things, but because I had a life.
I enjoyed my own company. Don't drown yourself in thoughts, drown yourself in observations. Maybe that's why my mind used to feel so empty. I looked around at everything. I spent a lot of my time looking at things and appreciating them instead of thinking too hard. (that's changed now, but I won't talk about that) It only lasted about a year then some high school drama happened with my now best friend that threw me into a depression for a few months... maybe that's why I lost that good feeling. Hadn't thought about it until just now. (ok, so I did talk about it a little XD)

Haven't got that feeling back since then. But it was nice.