Pour Your Heart Out

I'm sorry for these late responses but i really have too many assignments sometimes. also thanks to anyone who helps others when i am not here, i read all the messages.

Sltg28
honestly, the first thing you should know is how normal these thoughts are, most of us have them. but more importantly, is what do you do with these thoughts? there are two scenarios here. first, create a great mental fort over time. which means to know which one of these is wrong and never come near them again. and keep reminding yourself about the good ones and improve day by day. and the second scenario is that you let these thoughts absolutely drain the life out of you. now obviously the second scenario is not very good. but you seem to be lost and confused, which is okay. but you need to clear up your head soon. and walk slowly towards the first scenario. now please always remember that you are absolutely 100% important. please drill that in your head. im not saying this to comfort you, its a fact. you are important to all of humanity. in many ways whether directly or indirectly. i am also always available if you needed someone to chat with. also many helpful members of the community. dont hesitate to send me a dm if you needed anything.

SlipperyCheese
1. only an ignorant will call you that. it's okay to grieve for someone's death, there is nothing wrong with that. as for the dark thoughts, remember it's a phase. meaning that one day you will figure all these things out. and this helps you to calmly think about them and think them through one by one. don't overthink tho. om sure most of the questions in your head have answers. just give yourself time to figure them out. if there is a specific question or thought in your head that is confusing you, I can try to help you. just send me a dm. don't be sad tho, these are thoughts, they come and go, some have answers, some don't. its okay. : )
2. appearance is something i also sometimes struggle with lol. but i keep reminding myself that we are humans, we are supposed to be imperfect. even though its hard sometimes but you have to love and accept yourself. be clean though lmao. if people around you judge your looks then honestly that's the wrong people to hang out with. find good people. good people know that its whats in the inside that matters.

RAPPERJACK
these topics are very sensitive and complicated. i can't help you here (for personal reasons), i apologize.

dantexpress
an amazing message, great post. lots of things to learn from.

RubeGoldberger
i love how analyzed your posts are, true signs of an intellectual introvert lol. respect. your post is pretty much self-explanatory but remember to not overthink these bro. yea thinking is cool but also sometimes having fun and being stupid is also fun. i sometimes like to analyze my everyday moves and acts and stuff and sometimes i turn on stupid mode and do some fun things. not harmless tho lmao. Anyway i was just throwing a thought of mine here. thanks for your post. : )

Razerjunior
you shouldn't really look for attention from others or communities. those aren't guaranteed. you become your own attention and company. that's what i learnt over the years. enjoy your time alone as much as you can, find ways to make it interesting. it's fun trust me. and again don't seek plays for your tracks to feel good. that just usually ends up in frustration. it's also not correct. i find hobbies to be loneliness's best friend. find something you can amuse yourself with. don't be sad. loneliness is a true treasure if used correctly. : )

 

i put so much of my time in this track https://www.freeriderhd.com/t/772274-fixed-merry-x-mas and i am talking about alex-da-p

 

Oh I see, I thought you were talking about your Lovi account. So you're Alex-P too?

 

no i am not alex-p

 

and my signature is talking to me

 

wtf its razer who is talking how do u think its alex-p

 

Erm ok then. I would say that's just bad luck, but my guess is also cause you posted it twice. People may think you're copying, or whatever.

You just said your alt was Alex-da-P, so I assumed they were connected.

 

no i said it was broken in the comments of th first one :/

 

I love your responses, they are very helpful.
But I still have a little questions...
But what happens when those thoughts drain every little drop of life on you? What to do when that happens? When you don’t want to live anymore? When everything you aim to is going to sleep and never wake up? When you don’t have even any little bit of hope in the world less? Like you have done everything you can do but nothing improves?

 

i like ur responses

 

Madara you are wisdom almost better than baby yoda

 

That means a lot, thanks. I really do overthink things. It would probably be valuable to learn how to go into autopilot (if that makes sense, I guess 'stupid mode' like you said, but harmless things lol) to give my mind some time to heal or organize itself.

You really are so sincere and caring. I teared up reading your response. I'm sure you get this a lot, but thank you for making this thread.

 

ditto that too

 

What if gods real, and I get to heaven and he looks me in the eyes and says my whole life was a waste of time?

 

Why do you think that? If God is real, then that means he will have a plan for you. Even if you chose the worst possible turn of events for yourself.

 

I hope.

 

That's what it says in the Bible. God is always watching over you, he will guide you in whatever you do.

 

yea it says in the bible that god will protect you at all times, but he has a pre-determined plan for everyone

 

ok i need your wisdom Madara . ive been having some suicidal thoughts for these past couple of days and i dont know why. like ive been doing things i like to do to cheer me up but everything in the world right now just seems so boring. i just feel like i have no purpose in life so i need some help

 

yes